hes left, he has been umming and ahhing about it all week, leading me into a sense of false security and dropping me again. Still says its for the same reasons - he doesnt want to argue, he says things will probably be fine for a couple of months then we'll be back here again (here being where? where he cant 'cope') he said he was worried about telling me cause he thought i'd be bitter, i said i'm angry how do you expect me to be? he wouldnt have been happy if i'd said oh ok yes go. I still think he's gone because he's been staying at work and been by himself and seen what life he could have. he said thats not true, i also beleive he has feeling for someone at work although he strongly denys it but he would wouldn't he? and even if maybe he doesnt realise it himself you just know by the way a he speaks about her. and i'm now in bits again a week later than he first told me, and i feel crap. and angry, and yes bitter and used (did i say he slept with me last night) apparently he thought he loved me last night. and this morning, until on his way to work when he changed his mind (again)he had time to think.... so it looks like i'm still having to look for somewhere to live only now its just for me and dt. he siad he will come round on sunday to tell the dt. am sorry for going on so much, just cant face phoning anybody.