I'm not even sure where to start really but I think I'll feel better after writing it all down.
Mum to 3dc (16,14 & 9) all good kids and we rub along nicely without many issues.
I work in a job I don't really like but it puts food on the table and is quite flexible for me to sort the kids. STBXH is not local anymore so I am doing everything alone, school runs, appointments, day trips (if we can afford), everything. He has NO input at all (completely his choice). He no longer works the ridiculous hours in his chosen career (which contributed to our breakup) as he didn't want to pay £600 PM CM, instead choosing to become a FT carer for a family member and moving 300 miles away. He is supposed to pay £7pw from his carers allowance for the kids. CMS have had to force this so we actually really get about £6.75 PW. Received a letter over the weekend to say they haven't got any payments from the benefits agency and are looking into it.
I am killing myself trying not only to provide a house and an acceptable living standard for the DC but also be a mum and a dad as well as a taxi service and everything that goes with being a parent and he can't even provide the pittance that the powers that be say he has to.
I ended up crying on the phone to the CMS today over £6.75 a week that we haven't received (apparently I shouldn't worry as it's being added to the arrears of £865 he owes, so he's not getting away with it!) I felt utter shame and despair at the whole situation.
How can an absent parent sleep at night knowing they provide absolutely nothing for the children they help bring into this world and have spent years living with. He provides nothing either financially, physically or emotionally and I am at my wits end with it all.
I know I'm not the only one in this position and it boils my blood that this is allowed to happen.
As it happens writing it down hasn't made me feel any better. It's just crap.