Don't want to do this anymore

[Mybabiesandi]

Had enough. My kids would b better off with their dad. I am totally worthless and my babies need more! B done at 1 xx

Don't want to read and run.

Your babies need you. You are their Mum and one of the most important people in the world to them.

You sound like you are in a very dark place at the moment. I have no advice but just wanted you to know someone had heard you.

It had very severe post natal depression and PTSD and ended up in a mother and baby unit as my husband has bipolar and couldn't look after us. I felt so alone, but I focused on putting one foot in front of the other each day until the fog lifted.

I have also subsequently suffered from depression and felt suicidal. It's fucking hard being a parent sometimes. Sometimes you just want to give in to the tidal wave of panic and despair. I get it totally. And sometimes it really sucks that you can't because there are little people depending upon you.

Are there people you can reach out to? Family? The Samaritans, your doctor or health visitor?

Sending you .

Please come back and let us know you are ok OP? People on here want to, and can, help you. You’re not alone.

You posted last night about how lonely you were that your kids were at their dads.

Your kids do have a right to see and spend time with their dad, so embrace it and use the time to do stuff for you. You work really hard as a single mum so enjoy the time you have on your own.

When you feel like this your kids will pick it up and that’s hard in them.

You sound in a really dark place. You should tell your GP how you feel and get some help.

I'm Oki, just a dark moment!!! Xx

we all have dark moments so understand how you feel. The key is to talk and to take care of yourself. Lone parenting is relentless and it can seem like it’ll never improve, but it will.
Today my DD is with her Dad. I’m so rundown and tired so my only plan is a face mask and a long bath. Something small but it will perk me up and make it easier when she comes home tonight.
Small steps, medication if you need and be kind to yourself. There’s a quote that those who think they are bad mums aren’t because they have all the hard times but they question and try to improve. Real bad mums don’t even acknowledge that they might be a bad mum.

My babies. Hope you are feeling a little better today. As people say just take it hour by hour.

Have you spoken to your gp?

Know it feels insurmountable. But you will get through this. Your babies need their Mum. X