so tired

[lyssie29]

My fiance died April 2016 leaving me with a 6 month old and a 3 year old so it's been almost 2 years. My kids are now 2 and 4. I am coping better with it now but with Christmas etc I'm so so tired. I'm having trouble even just getting someone to sit in
my flat while the kids are in bed so I can go out for an hour without the kids. The last time was bonfire night for an hour while i went with a friend to see some fireworks. I'm lucky the go to bed at half 7 but youngest is getting up up to 20 times until she settles. I just need a bit of a break and have no one to help. I feel like I'm going insane. Anyone have any tips? No family will help me. I feel really alone.

I'm so sorry. How hard it must be and clearly very tiring. I wish I had a solution for you. Could you swap a night of babysitting for something else if you can't afford to pay people?

It's so hard because I always think to myslef, if someone asked id at the very least give them in free night of my help.

Have you tried mn local for support closer by?

Well done for coping this far. I've only got one dc so you have my complete admiration.

If you can't find any cover, can you at least have an evening after they are asleep that is a bit luxurious. Bath bubbles, soft lighting, candles, nice music, give yourself a manicure/pedicure. Hot chocolate (with rum) Ring friend/mum and have a gossip.
Ignore the ironing !

What about a babysitting service? Might cost a bit, but your sanity will be worth it.

You need your own time. I am alone with my child 24/7. He's 13 now. I know it is so hard doing it alone.