Posting here as I'm particularly interested in trying to reconcile my mind with what's normal single parent exhaustion and what actually might be depression?
Had a serious bout of depression yonks ago for an obvious reason and responded really well to medication after trying everything else I could think of.
This time around I'm really confused though- I'm definitely not suicidal or harbouring those types of thoughts but I'm not right. Have tried all the things I tried last time to no avail.
I'm functioning, I'm physically and emotionally responsive to my child but I just feel completely used up and like I'm faking. I find all the little things so overwhelming. Lots of bigger stuff going on too and I just don't have the energy to cope with it all. I feel like my head is full of fluff, can't concentrate on anything. I spend a lot of time crying and am usually in bed by 8. Living on comfort food, can't trust myself to drink alcohol as I've lost the ability to drink in moderation. Don't ever want to socialise (not that I can afford it but used to enjoy an odd night out- now I actively avoid them). I know all the CBT keep moving through it, make yourself see people stuff but it feels so insincere as I end up playing the joker to hide how low I feel.
In short I'm a flipping mess. But I'm a single mum to a toddler with no family locally and struggling for money so am I actually just normal?! Is this just a case of waiting for the light at the end of the tunnel? Are others drowning too?!