Just looking for a bit of support and advice. My DS is 5 and he is off on his first holiday abroad with his dad and I'm an emotional mess. He's really excited about it, which is great, but I just feel so sad that I'm missing out. I would love to watch him enjoying himself, playing in the pools and on the beach. It's such a wrench to know that it's yet another experience I will miss out on sharing.
I don't have a good relationship with his dad, he's an unpleasant and controlling man. Last year he told me they were all going to France for a week, I was given the times of the ferry crossings and the campsite and he promised to text when they arrived. 48 hours after the ferry arrived I still hadn't heard anything despite calling and texting only to be told they weren't in France and were staying in a static caravan in Cornwall. This experience has done nothing to help with the anxiety side of my son going abroad either.
I manage to say all the right things and behave in 100% the right way as far as my son and ex goes, but inside I just feel so so sad.