I'm not sure what I'm asking for, just maybe a space to write my feelings down.
I'm struggling with being a parent and a lone parent, although dad is involved and has a fair amount of contact. I have overall responsibility of them. I have 2 DCs age 10 and 7.
I don't enjoy parenting at all and feel overwhelmed with the responsibilities. I feel overwhelmed with all the housework that needs to be done daily. A small example is that the house is a tip, but because I feel demotivated I don't know where to start. So I just look at it all and feel paralysed.
Sometimes I feel lonely (a lot of the time), at weekends when I see other families have family time, or going out to do things together. I could go and do stuff with them; trips etc but without another adults to share it with, it feels lonely.
It feels as though there are constant demands, for food, for entertainment, to do things, to keep up with school
Today is a bad day, it feels like too much. I can't even motivate myself to get sorted and take them to the park.