really struggling

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I have been a lone parent since 2014 which I've managed not too badly with the support from my ex dp but unfortunately, sadly he passed away 3 months ago. It's been a struggle for my ds and I emotionally but I am also struggling with being the sole parent in charge of everything, if that makes sense . I don't know how I'm going to manage everything on my own and I feel as though I'm really letting my ds down as I'm not coping well.

I'm so sorry for your loss. It sounds like you're having similar struggles a newly bereaved spouse would, but with perhaps little recognition or support from others as he wasn't a current partner. But all the same he was a co-parent... so you have lost a very significant figure in you and your sons life.
In what ways do you feel you are letting your son down?
I do understand that "it's all down to me" feeling and I know that I had my folks around for support during those times, and that the deadbeat dad that is my exH could be contacted in the worst case scenario as well. And you don't have that. So that must be tough.

I hope you have some support around you. I wonder if you are having time for self care as I bet you are very focussed on your boy.

Perhaps Cruse or a grief focused charity could be of some help?

Thanks very much for your reply isadora, I do feel as though I've lost a significant other but that I shouldn't be grieving as much because we weren't together.
I feel as though I'm letting my son down because he sees me crying every day and getting so upset when he is the one who has lost his dad. I don't really have any support to be honest