Hello,
Strange, I can't see the private message space anymore.... I am a bit confused.... It appears to have gone. Let's wait and see then...
Were you ok when your boyfriend left or were you quite disappointed? Yes I can understand that you were excited about the baby and as you were working I am sure you felt happy about it, a bit like a next step. You must have been quite stressed to hear his negative reaction to it? I know exactly what you mean about how you feel towards your daughter, I feel the same towards my son, I love him to bits despite a difficult pregnancy and very hard toddler years (he was really hard work). I feel so sad when he goes to his dad now, I miss him so much even for a night and a day!
I am 41 and my son is 6 now. His dad left when he was 4. We are still in touch and things on the whole are going ok.
That's really nice if you can study and manage to do what you want, where will you go to study? how long is the course? What business are you thinking about?
Yes, enjoy the help you get from your mum, you are very lucky. I was very disappointed and scared when my husband left. I don't have my parents around so no childcare nor help in anything, I am tired and have very little time to do things and it's a bit lonely. Before the baby, I had worked full-time as a secondary school teacher before I had my son, then I gave up my job to look after him (it was a commun agreement) then when he left, I had no job and hadn't worked for 4 and a half years. I didn't want to go back as a teacher as I really had enough of the job, the stress is very high and the hours are crazy, full-time means about 40/50 hours a week and I don't want that. It took me a good year/ year and a half to find a job which was part-time but so badly paid. I worked 8 months as a cover supervisor, which I didn't enjoy but it was 4 days a week and no work at home, so had more or less time to sort house, paperwork and child out, but I didn't enjoy it and it was poorly paid. then I found a post in a Primary school as a TA which I enjoyed better but it was only 16 hours a week and not well paid, so struggled financially. Now, I have found a job that I love and find really interesting, helping exams children with their French speaking exam at a local private school. Love it, it's so interesting and it's well paid, but unfortunately, it's year maternity.... I obviously hope to stay on but I don't think I will be able to...
But, I do hope that things will get better with time and I must enjoy the time with my little one, he is my priority really.... Does your daughter go to nursery? Do you do any activities? I am very limited of course, but I manage to do ballet once a week now as my ex looks after the child for that hour.