Split with ex 18 months ago. Had found out he had been cheating (amongst other things). Threw him out. I was so so angry for well over a year. Angry at what he had done, angry at how my kids now come from a single parent family. Angry for the lonely nights whilst hes moved on and has an active social life! Angry at how little he sees his children. Angry I had to battle with cms as he wouldn't pay! Just plain angry really!! Thats not to mention how devastated I was and hurt!
Ive recently moved house. Needed the space. Also needed to get rid of the memories of that house. I was anxious about how I was going to do it alone with two kids. (One autistic, for who change is very difficult). You know what though. I done it! ME!! I was sitting last night thinking and looking around our lovely new home. I decorated MYSELF! I sorted removals and carpet fitters MYSELF. The fridge is full because of ME. My children are happy and healthy because of ME!! As for having a relationship, for the first time I feel that I don't need one! When I look at friend's having silly relationship dramas "he doesn't help around the house", or "hes going mad as a bought a new bag". Im sitting here thinking how glad I am that im single. I dont have to "ask" a man if I can spend money! ITS MINE. I dont want a relationship! I actually feel happy as I am :) I actually think its easier alone! Was just wondering if anybody else has had this sudden realisation that they are better off alone? It feels really good