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I'm just wondering if I'm being hard on myself or if this is too much for my dame aged 3.
I've just become a student nurse, it's very intense and dd is in nursery 5 days a week 8-5 then as the time table is so strange she does maybe two mornings 7-8 and one evening 6-7 with a childminder.
She's with me in regards to residency and hadn't seen her dad since July. However it looks like that may be going back to court and dd will be forced to spend 3 hours in a car on a Saturday and again on a Sunday twice a month.

I try and pick dd up early or take her in late on the days I can but uni is 50 min drive. I have great parents too but I can't help but feel awful that dd is shunted about.
She hasn't said anything and enjoys her life I just feel terrible and I'm only 3 weeks in to my first year!

What do I do?

No one can tell you what to do but I can tell you that I think you are doing your very best in an almost untenable situation. I am sure your reasons for studying are so that you can provide for your dd in the future as you now feel everything falls on your shoulders. She is well looked after in nursery and I am sure that you give her quality time when you can. I hope things settle down for you.

It will settle down - it is going to be hard but at the end of the day - you will be able to provide for her in a much better way and asa role model you will be superb.

she will adapt and will know no different. I put mine in nursery full time for the 18 months - felt bad but they made friends enjoyed it and knew nothing else. Home was us time though - v special and v much baout playing music, dancing and singing in the car - you will find away.

Thank you.
I guess it's all new at the moment and I'm struggling with finding a balance