My lifes never going to get better is it !?

[misstiredbuthappy]

Sorrybut im going to moan

I feel stuck in a rut. Nothing bad really my lifes completely better to what it was this time last year money wise im not rich but dont struggle to put food on the table like I have before. So im really lucky.

I still get the feeling im always going to be lonely and unhappy. Everywhere I look I see big happy family's going on holidays, days out bbqs in the garden ect ect. It's just me and dd and I feel its always going to be this way. Work school and thats it. I don't resent dd or anything like that far from it. But do you ever think about the future and think "is this it for me ?"

you know, I had a grumble about the ground hog nature of lp-ing on the other thread. It does feel bloody monotonous at times.

I suppose we need to book at it the other way and think of it as stability .

Is this it for me? Yeah, I think that sometimes, but I tell myself there's always hope. I think most people's lives are a bit monotonous and lots of people in relationships are very lonely and unhappy.

Hope something nice happens soon for you.

It's just so much more effort, isn't it? For absolutely everything. My dd is almost 2 and I'm prone to thinking I'll never go on holiday again, I'll be alone forever, etc. And I'm yet to figure out how I can get to the gym/ clean the house satisfactorily, etc. I signed up for match.com and never have time to look at it, let alone meet anyone. BUT it won't always be like this. It takes a lot of researching to find holidays, babysitters, gyms with crèches, etc, but I'm pretty determined to show my dd just how well I can look after my sanity (as well as her). Hang in there. You never know what's round the corner.

I can only reiterate like I have stated on another thread the loneliness just isn't there any more now ds is 10. He is such fun and interesting to talk to!!

I also force my schedule to allow time for hobbies e.g. piano playing and reading and this gives me respite from the monotonous ratrace of earning and funding earning and funding and endless housework ....!!!

DressingGown babysitters is a doddle it is just funding it. There is sitters.co.uk. However 3 times I have booked it and 3 times I have had to cancel it due to a lack of funds as £20 for 3 hours is a lot for me to find on top of the expenses of the night out itself.

I will just have to start going out in 4 more years when ds is 14. He won't need a sitter then. Unless a shining knight rolls up who is able to babysit ....!!

Life has ups and downs for everyone. Don't worry, your up will be around the corner.