Lone parent and the longing to have another child

[noorqt]

Ex left me 2dd last year for ow and has since married her. I had a very early miscarriage after he left, as I thought things were ok prior to him leaving (we had our ups & downs) and thought we both wanted another child. My heart mourns for my unborn child and I think how my Dd's would have adored their sibling. Now that ex has gone my longing for another child is heartbreaking. I don't know if it's the love i have for my ex that I am mourning or the loss of the family I dreamt that I would have.

Sorry for the post... I know it serves no purpose. Xx

I suspect it's due to the loss of your baby. I felt a heartbreaking longing for another child after I miscarried one of my twins, in my 3rd pregnancy. This feeling didn't start to go until I had my next child, 11 yrs later.

Sorry for your loss, I know what I felt won't make you feel any better.

It's perfectly reasonable to long for another child. You wanted another child and the loss of the pregnancy at the same time as your husband leaving you must have been utterly shattering. I suspect too there may be more pain in the future when and if your ex and the OW decide to have children and for that reason I think you need to work through this as best you can now. It's right and reasonable to feel angry about this. Grieve for it, don't try and bottle it up because it's going to come out somehow. How did your ex react to the miscarriage btw?