Hi all, really struggling to cope at the moment. Split with my ex a year ago, we have a three-year-old son who has just started pre-school. It was an acrimonious split, with lots of anger and bitterness on both sides. Part of me still loves him, but I want to kill him sometimes too! We're both still single.
He used to see our son once a week, picking him up and dropping him back the next day. That was really the extent of our contact really. Since our son started pre-school last week, however, he's been picking him up from after-school club (he finishes work earlier than me) and looking after him till I get home. He lives 45-min drive away, so suggested I give him keys to my flat and he watch him there, give him dinner and bath etc.
It is the best thing for our son, as he is in his own home instead of being dragged from pillar to post. And he's with his dad, instead of a childminder (which I would struggle to afford anyway). But I'm finding it really hard coming home from work and seeing him there. It makes me incredibly sad, and lonely after he leaves. I feel like I can't move on when he's so present in my life.
I don't know what the solution is. Any advice would be great.