Birthday this week-feel sad...

[sunflowerfi]

and my other post about my daughter's troubles at school have only made me feel even more sad.
I'm a lone parent through my own choice. Ended marriage to my emotionally abusive, bipolar husband 2.5 years ago. While I am happy to be free from him I just feel down about how my life has turned out and it being my birthday this week makes it all the more evident.
10 years ago I would never have seen myself ending up a single parent, with a crappy job, never enough money for luxuries and a house which may be in a nice area but is badly in need of a 60 minute makeover.
I love my kids and would not change the part of my life for the world but I sometimes feel cheated when I see other people's lives-I wish I could give my kids two weeks holiday abroad each year, I wish I could afford a new carpet, new furniture, to get the body work on my car repaired. Although I'm not in any rush for a relationship I wish I could at least meet someone with some potential. I've been on dates with guys I have met online but there has never been any chemistry.
I know I sound like I'm proper feeling sorry for myself-I do know I have plenty to be thankful for and normally I focus on that-Ive just felt on a bit of a downer lately.

Happy Birthday for this week .

Have you got anything planned, day off to relax, meal out with your DD?

If its any consolation I tend to mope around my birthday, I always get the day off and go to the gym. It's hard when you're on your own and you won't get a proper evening out isn't it.

I've got a few things planned. Might take the kids for tea on the day, going to the theatre the day after with my best friend and then meal with my sister and another friend on Friday. Its not really the lack of plans getting me down-more the state of my life and to be honest I wish at the age of 34 I was in a happy settled relationship with a man I love. I'd be content with a takeaway pizza then.
I lead a busy life-large circle of friends, plenty of family I come across as the life and sole, always happy and smiling etc but its not how I feel half the time xx

I have been so long as on my own I really don't crave a live in scenario again it sounds so suffocating after 9 years being a single parent. Perhaps you will end up like me and prefer to be independent.

I would like a holiday too lol.

I plan to start using sitters.co.uk for evenings out but not until spring now ... They sound quite reliable.

I do agree there is a lack of nice men out there lol. They are either players or got too many problems.

If you can afford it book a half hour or 40 mins body massage it works wonders!