not sure where to start, i'm new on this forum, i've heard it is a really friendly place and i could do with some friends! i've posted a couple of replies but thought i would introduce myself here too. i have a 3 year old girl from a relationship that broke up when she was 1 1/2.. and i'm now 14 weeks pregnant with baby number two, with a different father. he is / was the love of my life and we had talked about marriage, kids and spending forever together. the pregnancy was accidental though and really a shock to me. after much angst he has said he just can't deal with it and in fact has left the country, though saying he still loves me, if you can work that one out.. i think the responsibility was just too much for him and he has just bailed out. he did it in such a horrible way and it has cut me up and i am devastated about the relationship breaking down. i went through weeks of hell trying to decide what to do, whether or not to have a termination. i had one years ago and just could not do it again. but i am really struggling a lot with this as everyone around me seems to think i'm doing the wrong thing, i don't have much emotional support from family though quite a lot of practical support, and friends are mixed in their views tho my best mates are sticking by me.. but i feel i am literally just surviving.. i am worried i have messed up my daughter's life as things are going to get a lot harder for us both and they are hard enough already.. sometimes i think of adoption but it isn't really a viable option as already seeing the scan i felt so much love and protectiveness for the baby, they say it is probably a boy and i felt so proud when i was told that, i've always wanted to have a son and even under these circumstances a part of me is really happy. but i am also really cut up, and feel very alone. do let me know if you are, or have been, or know someone, in the same position - i just feel so on my own with this! most of my friends don't even have kids and those that do are in happy and functional relationships. sometimes i feel like some kind of freak. anyway, all thoughts and comments much appreciated. cheers