Feel like im losing it !

[blueskies111]

Today I feel like I'm holding on by a thread . You know that feeling when you feel like your going to lose it and throw a wobbly. I'm juggling a lot and usually manage life very well. But add into the equation an impending operation , struggling daily coping with pain , a horrible row with my exhusband , a water leak and all the rest of the things we mums have going on and suddenly I'm not feeling like I can cope like usual. Today I totally lost my temper with my daughter , I don't want to do this being a lone parent I feel the pressure to put on a happy face so they know all is ok and can go to school in a good place - this hasn't happened this morning and I now feel horribly guilty. I'm not someone who can have a good cry , sometimes I think it would help to let thing out . I think I do this by having a shout , I guess its me saying I'm not coping today. Really hate feeling like this , any advice for getting myself out of this feeling gratefully received

Breathe. And again. It was a bad day! We single mums have more of those than we would like. You are doing your absolute best and you are doing ok, really!
You are human and can only take so much. Apologize to your daughter and start again. Maybe go into your bedroom and shout into the pillow instead? Or journalling to purge it from your system. Kids can see our struggle and that's ok as long as they know you are doing your best and will always do your best for them.
Try not to be so hard on yourself, you really are doing better than you think you are.

Tomorrows another day. Sometimes you have good, days some are totally crap. But I think that goes for everyone though. It can seem harder as a single Mum as you have to be responsible for what seems like so much sometimes.
You sound like you have a lot going on right now. Being in pain is enough to manage let alone other pressures. How long till you have a op? Do you have a date yet?