I left exh over five years ago with the help of mn and went to live in a refuge. we have now got are own flat its spacious and have made friends. ds loves his school and has lots of friends. im taking driving lessons and I have a job looking after a little girl 4 days a week 9 to 5 x the only thing is the guilt. ds was crying last night saying he wished id past my test because he doesn't get to spend much time with me. I miss him terribly when im at work and feel bad that im playing and giving cuddles to the lo I look after and not him :(