I've recently found out I'm pregnant. I'm not with the father and I am torn as to what I should do. After experiencing some bleeding + clotting + cramping, I was sent to EPU at my local hospital last week. I had a scan which showed I was carrying twins. I do know that if I was to continue with this pregnancy, I would be completely on my own.
I've got a 9 year old DS from a previous relationship. It's been hard at times but he's the best thing that ever happened to me. He sees his dad regularly and they have a great relationship.
My parents are aware and my mum is being really supportive. My dad not so. He's told me that it is my decision but I can't help feeling he thinks I'm stupid. This makes me really sad as he's always been my rock but right now I feel like he can't be there for me.
I've spoken to a couple of friends, they are being supportive but a few have said they are worried about how I'd cope. I have had mental health problems in the past and last year was a year of recovery for me. I left my stressful job and decided to set up a small dog walking business. The business is starting to build slowly but I think it would be nigh on impossible to carry on in a few months if I went ahead with the pregnancy.
Our living situation isn't ideal. Because of the problems I experienced at the beginning of last year and to get me back on my feet, my DS and I moved in with my parents about 9 months ago. We wouldn't be able to stay here if I went ahead as a) there isn't the space and b) it just wouldn't be fair on my parents.
The thought of not going ahead makes me feel incredibly sad. Conversely, I have fears about coping, housing options, my work, finances. Also, my main friendship circle is in London which is about 90 mins away from where we are (moved away a few years ago).