Hello there, I hope I don't go off on one too much...I just needed to vent a little as I feel vulnerable and don't feel comfortable openly talking about this with the people around me. This doesn't even necessarily require advice as such although I would like to hear from anyone who can relate to what I am saying.
To cut a long story short, I gave birth to my first child in May of this year. Sadly the little one's father had long gone after lying to me and deceiving me, it was impossible to stay together and he has had no contact since. That's ok, I do not want him anywhere near my child as he would ruin her as much as he tried to me! So the pregnancy was traumatic emotionally as i grappled with a break up and facing parenthood alone. So I'm a single mummy at 29 years of age and, despite not planning to have children, I am loving it. My little person is the light of my life.
I have someone in my life, a friend, who I have grown closer to but I feel I am carrying a lot of damage from my ex. It is not the right time to get into a relationship at the moment but even the addition of a romantic interest is enough to have my head spinning. I question this person's motives. I will not venture into any relationship now until a) my little one is older and b) I trust the person implicitly as he will be taking on myself and my treasured child.
Nevertheless I am upbeat most of the time and have so much respect for single parents out there, it's hard but hugely rewarding. I face a newly evolving situation with finances once I return to work but that is for another day :D