Feeling sad on son's birthday.

[normaleggy]

Today will be my son's 4th birthday. My exh no longer sees the kids, hasn't for 15 months now. I don't miss him and I like not having in my life but I feel so sad for my two lovely children being rejected by their cunt of a father. Most of the time we deal with it absolutely fine and the kids don't seem to be too effected (yet). But birthdays are always tinged with sadness for me now and I try so hard not to feel that way in case the kids pick up on it but I can't help it.

Also dd (5) has said a few times recently that she wished she had a daddy. It breaks my heart. How can anyone just turn their back on their children?

Sorry just needing to offload

Giving you a hug and passing large glass of wine

I absolutely empathise

I have not once, even for second regretted leaving my dds father.

However on her first Xmas when we had been separated a month I missed him desperately (or rather I missed what he should of been had he actually been there he would most likely of spoilt it!)

I think as a single parent Xmas and birthdays are especially hard because you want to make then super special but bottom line is its just you and the kids again, like ever other bloody day and you still have to tell them off, cook, clean, field tantrums and probably can't afford to take them out or buy them the presents you would like.

But that's not yours dcs experience of the day. Thank fuck!