Last week my ds' went away with their dad, his gf and her dc.
Ds1 (8) told me today that the gf told him that they are going to get taken away from me and sent to live somewhere else!!
Now, I've had ss involved in the past, when severe depression meant my housework got on top of me. The case was eventually closed, but I have recently started working with a local family charity, who are helping me with my self esteem, and routines to keep the house up to standard.
I wish I was someone who was naturally tidy, but I'm not. I can't help it. I try hardest, I just can't seem to keep the house spotless. It's clean,just cluttered. I think the problem is that I honestly can't see why clutter is a problem, ss seemed to think nothing should ever be out of place, and my past involvement with them left me confused about what is normal. (for example, my sw asked me one day why there were toys out in 2 rooms,.ummm maybe because i have 2 children, who wanted to play with different things? She also refused to close my case as ds2s bed wasn't made, as in sheets laid nicely, not didn't have bedding on)
Apparently the gfs house is always spotless, but ds1 also says she never does anything with them. Personally i would rather play with my dc.
Then ds2 cut his toe on a door while they were away. He told me that when he tried to tell his dad, they said that "your mother did that cutting your toe nails, she needs to learn to be more careful" ds2 tried to tell them that's not what happened, but they just kept saying it was my fault!
I'm scared that if they go for custody they'll get it due to my history, and that they'll back each other up on stories such as ds2s cut toe to make me sound bad.
I'm also so fucking angry. Why the fuck would you tell an 8year old that he's going to be taken away from his mum :(