Just a nothing post really.. Hoping someone understands as in RL nobody does..
My son is 16 months his Dad has never so much as acknowledged him, will walk past us in the street!! First few months I hoped he would mellow a bit & come round to the idea!! (He didn't)!! A few months down the line I went through an angry stage & put in a claim to the CSA... This causes a very angry response from him, the 1st time he has spoken to me in nearly a year!!! He was very abusive told me he hoped all along I'd miscarry as when I didn't he hoped the cu@t of a baby died!! He didn't want his other kids & family to know about ds so he'll never accept him!! He fought the CSA too, denying parenthood, ignoring their calls etc.. At the beginning of the year we did a DNA test (mortififying experience) it all got to the stage of a deduction being made from his wages .. I knew from the start he would pull this stunt because his employer is his friend!! But low & behold.. He hasn't earned enough to make s deduction!!!!!
I used to work in a small business like he does I know how easy it is to pay someone part cash in hand!!! The CSA say I can't prove it & he might have been off sick etc... I know different because we are neighbors I see him go to work everyday!!! Anyway.. This leads me to the decision to cancel the claim... Not because I'm scared if him but. Because I don't want the stress anymore, & mainly I think if he can go to such lengths to avoid paying then he can stick his money!!! I've managed so far. & I will struggle on!! At least I don't owe him any loyalty & I can proudly tell my ds I did it all by myself!!! Plus canceling the claim will be the last move he's expecting, so I still feel in control!!
Does everyone think I'm crazy??!! 