Feel on the edge!

[GracieLoo]

Having a stressful time right now. Dd, 4, has gone away for a couple of nights with her dad and his gf. They've gone to a zoo today, and he's just rang to say has she been ok this week. I could here her crying in the background. I usually manage when she's not here, but now I just want to give her a cuddle and I'm missing her so much it's making me cry. Keep thinking of her freezing and tired at the zoo, and them not knowing what to do with her, or telling her off.

To top it off, we moved yesterday and I feel stressed as hate everything all over the place, and I've got a 1st date tonight. I've not dated in months and I'm scared and close to cancelling. Plus I'm not sleeping great.

You have a first date the weekend you have moved? Wow. I would be gibbering on the phone to my friend about how I couldn't find my own clothes.

Is DD home tomorrow? Call me an old fart but I would use the time to unpack and unwind. On the other hand ....

I know what it's like to miss your DC when they are little and their dad has a gf. My ExH is on his 5th or 6th gf, but fortunately the DCs are older now and hold their own.

So what you gonna do?

Well I'm going on the date, couldn't really cancel. Nervous which is normal I know, I'm just so used to it being me and dd. Worrying about it too much. Plus suffered (suffering!) from depression and not sure I'm in the right frame of mind for this. I always do too much at once, moving, meeting new people, having job interviews, plus all the time trying to be a good mum. Hopefully one day it will all fall into place. Ex and gf are having a baby, so I suppose I think I deserve someone in my life too, I'd like to give dd a sibling maybe one day.

Sorry I'm rambling, heads a bit muddled right now!

I can see why you want to go out, because you have a rare night free. So I hope you have a good time.

(I'm still doing the laundry...)

Just need a bit of support but don't expect any as I messed up as usual. Went on a date last week, we'd been for a coffee but this was the proper date. It was ok, had a nice meal, he was funny, chatty and seemed keen. Trouble is I found out he has four kids by 3 partners, and does a bit of dodgy drug dealing which he was quite open about. He also had a broken hand which he kept changing the story about.

I was immediately put off by the drugs, maybe I'm over reacting, but I have a dd to think about. Plus I got the impression he didn't always tell the truth. However I liked the attention and found him attractive to we kept texting this week and he wanted to see me this wkend. I've just bottled it and sent him a nice text saying I had a few doubts etc. To be honest I'm struggling with depression, this wkend I'm finding hard, so this isn't the right time for me. I just feel horrible and alone. Hope I've made the right decision, just don't want to be alone forever.

If anyone has any advice, or id just like an opinion please!

Hey
Sorry you're having a hard time.
Sounds to me like you did precisely the right thing in cancelling this bloke. From what you've said, you have quite a few doubts, so don't go out with him just cos you don't want to be alone.
And I'm saying that as a single mum by the way- I know how you feel. See if you can concentrate on sorting the house; or even just have a relaxing night off.

There will be other blokes; and the timing will be better- and your gut won't be warning you.

Good luck