Dd is 18mo and we have been on our own since I kicked exp out when she was 3months. We split up before I got pregnant and should have stayed that way but had a holiday to Cuba booked and at the time I let him convince me it would be a good ideas to still go together, had a moment of passion before we went and I realised while we were away that I was pregnant. So stayed together...anyway fast forward now and I've recieved about £50 off him through the whole of my pregnancy and up until today. I have managed to accumulate a very small amount of debt and after working out all my outgoings last week, i am left with £18pw to do a food shop, buy nappies and pay off debt. Take dd to playgroups ect. There is absolutly no way i could cut back, i dont drink/smoke, i cant give my ar back as i would have to pay money to do so, i cant stop my virgin media services as i would have to pay the remainder of my contract. i work 17.5hrs pw and have a feeling at this moment in time I probably would be better off not working. I'm not against being a single sahm but I love what I do and know that one day I will be better off and also I'm lucky to have a job. Not expecting any advice but I can't help but think this all sucks!