My ex-partner and I have a two year old child together and have lived seperately since our child was 6 months old (him in France, me in the U.k) although we had conducted a long distance relationship, formerly with a view to perhaps reconciling and living together.
I wrote on mumsnet a few weeks ago to seek advice about what felt like a ridiculous relationship and I got some very sound and unbiased advice which i was grateful for. The upshot being that I told him I was not willing to continue a relationship with a man who did not contribute maintenace for his son, constantly lied to me and who nearly drove me to the edge of insanity.
It was a huge relief to let go of his hold and to start planning a future for my son and I. However having spent 3 weeks at christmas with my ex partner and one (only one!!!) ten minutes of festive passion I found out last week I am pregnant again.
I am delighted (if surprised) and I cannot help but think that some things are meant to be...the baby, not my relatinship with it's father. I haven't told anybody yet as I want to pass the 12 week stage first. I have told my ex and he presumed we would up sticks and live with him again (it's always got to be on his terain and terms) which i said would not be happening...I haven't heard from him since. My worry is how i am going to tell my family and friends that I stupidly got myself into this position. I am a single mother with a toddler and as of September i am going to have a newborn baby. I feel blessed but I can't help worry that I won't have the neccessary ability to be everything to my kids and that I will be a burden to my parents.
Any advice? Ms. Hormonaly charged