Very down and needing support

[Blue81]

Not sure if this is the right place to post. My DS is 7 months and ill with a nasty viral chest infection. I am not coping, have post natal depression and sometimes just want to scream at him to shut up. His dad has been to mine to 'look after' him as he is too unwell to go out. (This involved my ex being very demanding and calling me a lazy cow.) I can't go on like this, I am too scared to take my anti depressants as they have a sedative effect and I can't rouse myself once asleep. What do I do? He just keeps on waking up every hour and screaming

Oh dearie. Well he has messaged to say baby is now fine. Am feeling upset that he shouted at me and made me feel it was all my fault but I guess he was just worried for our son. At least that is what I am telling myself as otherwise I will just get all wound up again.

Main thing is baby is fine and sleeping peacefully. Wish he would wake up and give his dad a sleepless night Er I mean, hope he sleeps well.

Think it is my bedtime too.
Night x

My baby group is full of happily marrieds but once you get to know them everyone has their own problems (miscarriage, sick parent, insane MIL etc). But you can't start playing shit life top trumps, that woman is allowed to be upset about her life too, maybe she has pnd too and is feeling crap about 'just' being a mum now and that is her way of expressing it. There will be a mother in some war-torn country having a worse time than you, so does that mean you aren't allowed to complain? I'm not trying to be mean, just saying don't dismiss the normal baby groups, there will be some nice people there. And another lp has just started at ours so you never know.

Also post traumatic stress can be mistaken for pnd but the treatment is different. You can get it from quite a 'mild' birth. Do you get flashbacks or panicky thinking about the birth, major anxiety about his safety etc.

doubleyew Fair point. Yes I suppose to some my life may look rosy from the outside.