hold my hand please

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I have had a nice day,but I am so, so lonely.For a change, the weather has been good, I have been sitting in the garden, playing "imagine" in my head. I am alone, how much nicer to have someone fetching me drinks, looking after me, helping to hang out washing, etc.

Just me and DD who exists in a world of her own (supported by me) I was in the garden and would have loved to have an OP bring me a drink, massage my neck, tell me to relax.

Instead, I have to listen to the merits of Mario and Sonic x 300. on and on. No-one to relieve me

I am just putting ds to bed so will come back later, but wanted to send a hug.... I completely know what you mean, and sometimes it sucks. It's lonely, and tiring and hard.

But god, I would rather this a million times over than have a dickhead in my house. Because in reality, my ex prob wouldn't have brought me a drink, or listened to anyone's chatter - and I have felt lonlier with someone by my side than I ever have on my tod.

I will check back in after bed time, but I hope your ok. just wanted you to know someone was here x

For a while post split I couldn't near the thought of anyone being in the house with me but now I'm more relaxed I admit to bring a bit bored in the evenings. I would like a partner I see a few times a week that lets me get in with it the rest of the time

have a look on relationships thread and you'll soon lose the rose-tinted specs! not that I'd mind the drink-bringing/massage-giving hunk if you could pass him my way after
seriously though OP hope you feel a bit better now - there are plenty of us here and all us lps are bound to get lonely from time to time

Are u still here op?

Thanks for replies. Hot weather and red wine, plus sofa which I feel asleep on.

Yes I know, rose tinted specs, and all that. But sometimes logic goes out the window and I just get so fed up with it. Have been on my own for 10 years now, and it has been 8 years since I've even been out with someone.

The nice weather, the wine, the happy, feel good day it has been with the Olympics, etc and I would have liked to have had someone to share it with.

I don't often venture into the Relationships thread, but I do read others and that usually ends up with me feeling sorry for myself. I know self-pity is a very unattractive trait, but as I work FT, have no help, have a child with ASD and LD and have to do every single thing myself, it's hard not to get upset reading some of the threads.

Anyway, thanks for listening.

I am married but my DH is abroad at the moment. Not having someone around to just pass the baby to, just so .i can shower/go for a run/do my nails......sigh.

It can be lonely and I can understand it wouod be nice to have someone to care fir you after you have been taking care if yoyr children

Why not start dating? Being alone is great, I've loved being single and I enjoy not worrying about dinner/being able to be a slob as noone to see me ;))))

You could try online dating if you have not been on the dating scene for a while?

Online dating just depresses me more

Only get very, very occasional interest from men in their 60s....really

OP it's not surprising you're finding things sometimes hard, it's really hard what you're doing and well done, give yourself a pat on the back. Totally understandable to want a bit of company, I think those 'communal' type things such as olympics/jubilee etc can make it hit home, for me anyway as I tend to think everyone's out in families having fun, it's a bit like an extra christmas IYSWIM
So there's no harm in self pity and it sounds like you need a bit of fun/night out/date even - can you arrange something nice for yourself to look forward to?

Well, I'm enjoying the Olympics and MN this afternoon. DD is playing with dolls, Sunday is usually a lazy day anyway.

Andy Murray has totally cheered me up

yes, I'm slowly going loopy today. Just the dc's, no adult conversation or company. I have been shouting rather a lot. Weekends can be hard going.

I dread to think what I would do without MN and FB to dip into every so often!