Is it normal to feel like this ??

[nutcracker]

Am having a bit of a crap day today. Feeling a bit weepy and lonely.

Xp came round earlier to have ds for me whilst i went to the dentist and I was actually glad when he turned up which is stupid cos I so don't want him back at all or anything.

Need an emoticon with a screwed up face, cos thats how i feel today.

Kids are driving me a bit loop today too and tbh the thought of not having a break form them for at least a couple of months (maybe longer) is a bit daunting to say the least.

Nutcracker, sorry you are having a crap day.
Sounds completely normal to me (especially at the start) but it will get easier. And, as for daunting... if you didn't feel daunted you'd not be human. However, it will get better. Best wishes, Winnie

You are newly alone (not single IYSWIM) and you will have these days. At least you are recognizing that you don't want him back. Its similar to depression, you'll have good days and bad, I still do and I've been on my own for 3 years now.
Try reminding yourself of the little things you can do like watch what you want, wear what you want, lie in the middle of the bed cocooned in the duvet(my personal favourite) and it'll pass.
Oh and chat on here as there will be people to help pick your spirits up.
Stay strong hun (((((()))))))

Thanks Winnie

Heres hoping Xp sorts himself out a flat and can give me a break form the kids soon. Mind you they could be teenagers by then at this rate lol.

Good ideas Spursmum, and tbh within 5 min of him being here today he had reminded me more than enough of the reasons why I kicked him out, talk about moan moan moan.

Am sure i'll feel better when i'm on the sofa in control of the remote later.

Exactly, with drink of choice and lots of loverly nibbly things! works wonders every time!

i still have days like this and ive been a lone parent for 7 years now. completely normal...but it does get better. promise. to me now its just a bad day...quickly forgotten.

yes it is normal
my H left 4 months ago and I still have mixed feelings when I see him
I have decided to wean myself off him by not seeing him or talking to him
luckily have my parents nearby so last weekend he picked them up from them
I havent spoken on phone either

its hard but we will all get there
the one thing that keeps me going is MN cos I can speak to others who have been there and come out OK on the other side so to speak

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Thanks you lot

Am still feeling a bit low today but trying to keep myself busy. Had a good bawl when i went to bed last night, not sure if it made me feel better or not tbh but ensured I awoke with lovely puffy eyes anyhow.

nutcracker, it will get better ... honest.
Keeping busy is a good trick but also is, if you can, changing your routine a bit. If you can create a life that is somehow different from life with x it seems to help. Try small things and move onto bigger things. Very importantly make some time for you. I know this is difficult especially if you have no support and no babysitter but maybe plan something for you that you wouldn't have done if x was still there that you can do once children are asleep.
Thinking of you, Winnie

At the moment I hate it when the kids have gone to bed because I just feel so lonely.

My mom said she couldn't understand that as when Xp was here he watched tv and I sat on here, but i said the point is, if i wanted a conversation I could have one and now I can't.

Fell like such a wimp. It's what I wanted fgs, and I still think I made the right desicion so why do I feel so crap.

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Thanks

Need to slap myself into shape I think. Just shouted at Dd1. She was being a madam but I was OTT.

House was supposed to be calmer now he had gone.

Will give her extra cream on her hot choc and apologise.

Crapping hell, have also just realised that she hasn't spoken to her dad since he left on Friday.

Dd2 and Ds saw him yesterday but Dd1 was at school.

Bet thats bothering her.

nutty, how are you doing today?

Thanks for asking Winnie

I am okish. Xp was here today for various reasons.

It was hard again for a bit when he left but then i threw myself into tidying up and sorting the kids tea and feel ok again now.

know what you mean about there being someone there at night. my friend (in a relationship and has been for over ten years) doesnt fully understand why i get lonely sometimes...as she says "but he's at work and then when he comes home i just come over to your house anyway". i try to explain that he is still there, he is there to bath their child, to look after their child if she needs to go to the shop, that at night in bed she doesnt have to worry about someone breaking in etc etc...silly things but it all adds up. basically, she knows that he is always there to look after them whatever happens. she doesnt understand bless her but theyre very good to me.

you will get used to it nutcracker, its a shock to the system but it does get so much better. its early days, dont beat yourself up for feeling crap...thats normal. if you know you did the right thing then thats all that matters. have a good cry if you want, rant if you want. its ok to do that. take every day as it comes and dont try to be a supermum, everything will fall into place over time.