No good ever seems to come of anything :-(

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I'm just sick of it and want to moan.
Single parent of 2, both of them are hard work and show little respect for me.
I work in a school and have been told that i am no longer needed so i dont have a job in two weeks time.
i had a lovely husband who i stupidly let go of 4 yrs ago and nothing has been the same since- just stupid flings with men who don t give 2 hoots about me, and who i just let use me for sex.

Didn't want to read and run. You sound depressed - I'd suggest making an appointment for your GP and asking for help. Counselling might help you, especially with regard to your relationships. Steer clear of any blokes for now, as you need to work on your self esteem before entering into a relationship. Was your marriage really that good that you regret it ending? I ask because your marriage must have ended for a good reason but lots of people look to the past with rose tinted specs. You need to start moving forward, and you can't do that while you're looking behind you.

Sorry to hear about your job too. Get down to the job centre and register for benefits while you look for another post, then at least you won't have to panic about money. Start looking around now for a new job, update your CV and definitely make that appointment for the GP. Good luck.

Thanks.
Have already been on anti depressants for four years! forgot to take them at weekend, and also got very drunk, so thats prob not helping.
i am also guilty of looking at the past with rose tinted specs, have had counselling for this and thought i was over it.
i guess i am feeling bad as i have met someone i really like, although i have vaguely know him for years, and we have had a bit of a fling, but turns out he want only "no strings attached fun" and it makes me feel used, despite me being the one who suggested it!!!!

That's what I mean about not going into relationships unless you're 'sorted' in yourself, if you know what I mean. If you say to a bloke 'Let's have a fling, you don't have to be in a relationship with me' he's going to bite your hand off isn't he?! Then you end up getting hurt. That's why I thought counselling might help you to see your own worth, and next time you won't 'put out' (sorry, couldn't think of better way of putting it!) until the relationship is more established. And if all the bloke wants is some NSA fun, you'll have the self esteem to turn them down, knowing that you're worth more than a quick fling. Maybe go back to your GP and ask for more counselling? And start taking those tablets again woman!!