Feeling really low and totally rejected

[littlelamb]

I have been having a bad couple of weeks and in the last few days everyhting has just got too much for me to cope with. I sent some pictures to dd's father, and his mum, who is usually lovely,and have recieved no reply. I am totally exhausted, but can't sleep, I have lost weight when I know I really can't afford to and I am having arguements with my bf for no reason For the first time, I am beginning to wish I hadn't had my dd, and that just makes me feel worse. How am I suposed to do this on my own I really can't see how I can carry on like this. I can't explain how I feel or why I feel it and that really scares me. I feel so frustrated that he won't even acknowledge that he has a beautiful daughter I am feeling totally worthless

Littlelamb when I had my first flat I lived on porridge I was always so broke. I remember finding loose change down the side of the armchair someone had given me and I bought a Flake - 19p, couldn't believe my luck!

Your dd sounds perfectly lovely and I can't stress enough how much that's down to you. Try not to stress over her dad, you won't be able to make him care. A friend of mine who is a single mum was hurt in a similar way and when her dd got to a certain age she was actually glad not to have him about. She said she would have felt very uneasy about waving off her dd when it was his 'turn' not knowing what she was off to do or who with. (She didn't know his family). She ended up very glad to have her to herself. Not easy when times are tough I know. Hope you sleep well honey.

It's hard being a single mum, even with all the support in the world, and it's even harder if you're trying to juggle studying too because it usually means you're always broke, just another added strain to your already strained lifestyle. (Who said we all had to be Superwoman anyway?? Nicola Horlik has a lot to answer for!)

There's a phrase I try to remember when things get bad, and believe me they do get bad - 'it won't always be like this!' You won't always be broke, you won't always feel this low, things do get better. And when they do you will have the satisfaction of knowing that you did it despite all that the world could throw at you!

I'm already planning my graduation photo with my ds sitting on my lap holding my degree! I can picture it now and it's one of the things that keeps me holding on.