Been a lone parent for over a decade.
xH cheated throughout our eleven year marriage, and I've only had 2 BF's (actually one was a fiancee!) until July when I started seeing someone. He's got a mixture of cold feet (doesn't want to get hurt so backed off), and wants to spend more time with his kids (ie. every weekend).
So... that's it. I'm done. I'm 45 in a few weeks but am determined not to dispair that it's back to hermithood, and that it's hermithood that will mark my future.
OK, I lie, I feel like shit, but hey it's cry and wallow in self pity or just accept it; and what point is crying... it's only an imagined future I've lost and I guess it does mean I won't get hurt again.