It's early days,I had a baby 9 days ago and the baby's father who moved out 7 weeks ago came back around the due date and was staying with me up until a couple of nights ago,same bed,I had neither the conviction or the strength to argue about that,the only difference to show we aren't together is that there is no sex and has not been since about a week before the baby was due (he was 12 days late).I don't know what his feelings are and I don't think I want to know,I don't think I have the emotional strength to hear anything that I won't like.I hope I'm not sounding too pathetic,most of our 4 year on/off relationship has been based around him trying to move in and me saying woah there not so fast,this led to a lot of problems due to his insecurity.I am an independent woman with 2 older children.This man went on and on at me to have his baby and it seems that now he's got what he wanted,he no longer wants to be a family ,although he does come round every day and acts like he never left,it's starting to feel weird,not knowing where we are at.Obviously,the baby is here and the focus now. I just want to know what's going on in his head but I can't ask him, it's as if it's gone too far to communicate at all. When he leaves to go back to his own place sometimes I feel fine but others,like tonight,I feel incredibly lonely. How did it get to this when all he ever wanted was us to be a family?