I have been feeling very lonely, scared of the changes that I am making to our lives and craving for a tiny little bit of romance or a pair of strong arms around me. Don't get me wrong, ds and I are having a great time and this is by far the easiest / most peaceful life has ever been.
However, stepping away from the mum role, I do miss more adult contact and it'd be nice to have a date with somebody decent! I haven't had date since April last year and I just don't seem to come across anyone remotely interesting.
Well, that was until I saw ds' PE teacher / rugby coach who is definitely high quality eye-candy! Much to my surprise, the teacher was talking to ds the other day and in the middle of the conversation came out with the comment that "your mum is a very nice lady". DS didn't say anything but was obviously quite surprised or else he wouldn't have bothered to tell me afterwards.
Anyway, I had to go to school this morning to meet another teacher and walked straight into the PE teacher who decided to stop for a chat. First he got my surname muddled up although he clearly remembered whose mum I was and even where we lived (which is far away from the school). It's just that when we got on talking about ds' long travel to school, he came out with a "poor lad" comment which really stung. I know it's far from ideal but you know, it's all I can do right now - there was no way I could afford the fuel for the 2 roundtrips every day and work my full-time hours as well! Overall, he was pleasant but no more. Does this mean the "your mum is a very nice lady" comment was just a way of being nice?
I think my disappointment comes mainly from the fact that he is a very nice looking man, ds and friends speak very highly of him and he is friendly and pleasant. I am not thinking relationship or anything other than it'd be nice to have somebody...normal (?!?!) showing an interest in me. The last guy who asked me out decided to impress me at a mutual friend's house by telling a joke which involved him impersonating a fisherman, pretending to wipe his bum with toilet paper then putting the paper in his mouth. We were stil eating dessert at this point. Charming. I then had to tell him about 3 times that we REALLY didn't have anything in common. Do you see what I mean? Some people may say that it's better than not being asked out at all but I am not entirely sure. To have some weird freaks asking you out can be pretty demoralising as they obviously think that they are in with a chance for some reason... Maybe they are more inclined to see a LP as vulnerable or desperate?!?!