i feel like such a twat

[allgonebellyup]

Feeling a bit low, texted the ex-idiot i dumped before xmas and i ended up staying over at his place at the weekend. i get this real urge where i just want the physical thing, and make all the effort to get it, even when he doesnt seem that bothered.
Then i next day i feel like some kind of nympho that practically has to beg for it!

Thing is, i know i am quite attractive and could get many men to sleep with me, so why am i going back to ex-idiot for it?

because its available?

you dont have to go through the hassle of meeting someone new?

because you have low self esteem?

because your ego has taken a bashing from him (if you could make him want you then you could be the winner and walk away)

dont beat yourself up about it,
just dont do it again!
the more you invest in him, the further away you are from happiness.

Yes, all those things i think!
It IS so much hassle to find it somewhere else

Cat string theory. That and forbidden fruit tastes the sweetest.

Mehh it's my experience your only twat, after separating for three years, going through the courts to get parental responsibility of your children to end up sleeping with your ex a number of times. Going on holiday together under the contrivance of sharing the costs of a family holiday. The end result basically ending up feeling very hollow inside .

i was only seeing him 3 months so nothing major! just feel drawn to him!