I have been single now for around 3 years and since I have had a few relationships and I have always been hurt in the process my dcs farther was abusive and unfaitfull and I feel as though I am trapped into a cycle of basically finding men who treat me with no respect.
I have had the you need to be happy in yourself before you meet someone else speech a lot and i underastand that and i am idependant and strong on my own but im am desperatly lonely and unhappy most of the time.
I dont feel as though I need someone to furfill me but I feel like I have been through all the rubbish and it should be my turn now but then i do meet someone it follows the same cycle I get attached they either move on or they use me because they know they can keep me hanging by a peice of string.
i have tried to distance myself but I end up falling for them too easily I cant help it then i get down when it doesnt work out and it goes round in cirlcles.
When I meet someone I know how it will go no matter what i do it always ends the same, im to the point now where as much as I want to find someone I dont think I will ever have a good realtionship, I have some nice guys that I know that would give me the world but im not interested in them because I cant find them attarctive so is it my fault for being shallow?
How do i break this cycle