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[knickers0nmyhead]

I knew years ago he didn't love me. I knew I wasn't a priority in his life. That he just did the 'right thing' because I fell pregnant.

4 years doesn't sound like a lot, but he was only my second partner. Never had anyone else apart from him and the bloke before.

Now I am left with two kids, I'm over weight and hating myself. I being made to feel guilty for finally claiming tax credits, for going to college, and for putting ds in crèche when I go.

His fucking drinking has taken over his life, and my bloody life.

He told me he hates me, but hates me even more now for claiming tax credits. I'm not even asking for any maintenance because he has made me feel so guilty that he only has about £70 a week to live on after hi mortgage and bills have been paid.

And while he is 'hoping to meet someone new once his drinking problem is sorted'

Im fucking sat here crying my eyes out cos the kids have wrecked my house and I don't know what to do.

I have no energy, at all. Call me lazy if you want, but I cannot find the strength to do anything. I just want to hid under my quilt and forget that there is a world here.

[waitingforgodot]

Hello
Just wanted to reply as you seemed down. do you have anyone in rl you can talk to?

[waitingforgodot]

also why is he bothered whether or not y ou claim tax credits?