Just need to get this off my chest...

[GreenDemon]

Fuck you DH.

We planned these children (well the last two at least). Now you have fucked off because some tart has convinced you that you're not living your dreams.

These were your dreams. You just ignored them and then felt pushed out.

Now I am here alone having to leave my baby to cry because I just don't have enough hands. It should be one of us doing one thing, the other settling her.

By this time of night they should all be in bed, not me still dealing with all three, with packing still to do and no time alone all day.

Fuck you.

And me too for still loving you.

Bastard.

you need wine and chocolate once they're asleep

and what a bastard, you're well rid, and the tart will no doubt be left on her own in a few years when he finds another dream to fulfil....

Stupidly she isn't the dream! I'm not sure she has worked that out yet. She has been encouraging him to live his own life, find himself etc in the hopes that he was going to go off with her. So far he's still not actually done that.

Oh Sweetheart... That's made me well up. I hope things suddenly change for the better for you and your family.

I'm so sorry you're going through this.

I'm so sorry to hear this. It sounds like you're doing a good job and your children will love you for it forever.

Fuck him. (not literally, v bad plan)

I do feel a lot better for having written it down.

DD2 is playing happily on the floor now. I'm going to have to do the packing in the morning as I broke my toe earlier and it is throbbing when I stand now. The other two are playing quietly in their bedroom. They can sleep in the car tomorrow.

(I am aware that anyone on my fb or twitter now knows exactly who I am, but please don't mention it as I don't mind people on HERE knowing, but don't want anyone searching my other name iyswim)

Finally - all asleep and wine is poured.

Being a single parent is shit.

TSSB - Yes it is. No matter how many threads I see saying how much better off we are and what so great about being on your own, it is ultimately shit for far more time than it's not. It's so relentness and noone understands how it is unless they find themselves there themselves.

But you will be fine GreenDemon, you just need some sleep and to be allowed to feel sorry for yourself for a while.

Hope you get your packing done ok and your toe is better this morning. Are you heading off somewhere nice?

Kids slept late so now I'm hopping round like a nutter. Toe is a lovely shade of purple today :o

Going to visit MustRunMore, see my sister (who I haven't seen in months), and then to stay with PIL for a couple of days (they like me and think DH is an arse)

The main thing I don't like about being a single parent is being permanently skint.

Not sure if that helps but just thought I would share....!