Does going to bed alone ever get easier?

[Flamesparrow]

I ache. I just want to be held.

I stay up until dropping point every night so I don't have to face the empty bed.

I love him. I swear he still loves me.

I don't want to go to bed alone again.

oh Flame

ex was often away, so I mostly went to bed alone, but it is different when you are no longer together.

I know exactly that feeling of not wanting to go to bed, because you don't want to go alone.

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Know how that is.
I usually end up watching tv till late and waking up at 1am ish having been asleep on the sofa. Am exhausted but I still turn the channel over to something else and settle down again to watch whatever and avoid going up to bed still. Finally stagger upstairs around 3 or 4 am when I wake up again on teh sofa, and then can't sleep in my bed!

It's tough isn't it

Its worse I think atm because I was starting to get more used to it, then we ended up spending a lot of time together on Saturday and it has just made me miss him all the more.

I could cope with us living apart even, if we were still "together", and I had that contact when I did see him. But I am trying to back off completely in a sort of make him see what he is missing effort. It appears to be having some effect, but painfully slow when I just want arms round me.

I might go up now and find Strawberry to take in with me. She ends up in with me eventually anyway, so I may as well snuggle now and get some sleep.

It's been years and I still miss spooning the ex, smelling her hair with my arm drapping over her (erm .. this isn't helping is it?!?). Ah well, just remind myself how awful the rest of our relationship was and get annoyed at myself for being a t!@t. GRRRR!

Lol W&N! It'd be better if there were more bad bits, but the bad bits were more low patches than bad iyswim. Maybe I should chuck some crumbs in the bed as a reminder (Odd, he never ate in it, yet there were always crumbs).

Obv not gone up yet

Ooh wonder if whiteand nerdy name changed for that one. Now I'mwondering if he's anywhere near me who he usually is....

Wha?

Can't stop singing white and nerdy now

Give it about 10 years and your next problem will be putting off getting involved with anyone because you're so used to having the bed to yourself.

I go to bed with my laptop these days. I'm sure I'd get more sleep if I had someone next to me to snuggle up to though.

My kids love it, and it's me to a tee!

"Spend my nights with a roll of bubble rap ... pop pop, hope nobody sees me getting freaky!" HAHAHA

Don't worry white&nerdy. You're safe, and not just because you're hiding behind your name change there. Though it sounds like there could be a market for spooning cuddles if you were needing to move on from the years of dreaming of your ex ;)

Yeah geillybean I didn't get the bit about name change?!?! Am I someone else? I'm easily confused. As for dreaming of my ex .... oouch harsh!!

Sorry, didn't mean it to be an ouch.

And I assumed you had name changed as can't click on your name to find out more about you. I dunno if that's just a name change thing or not tbh, but not seen you about before so jumped to conclusions I guess. Maybe it's just my over active imagination running away with me.

gillybean, I think I've sorted it ...

SpottyMuldoon, it's been about 9 years, I have no problem with putting off getting involved. Fact is I can't for the life of me remember how I got to get involved .

I miss him still and always will. He was the love of my life, but.........right from the day he left I've LOVED having a fart free bedroom all to myself. Its the best thing ever.

The dog and the DC come and lounge about on 'his' side and its lovely.

Try to think positively about it Flame. Have you got a telly in your bedroom ? I got sky plus installed in my room as a treat just for me and going to bed is my best part of the day. Having a loyal, faithful doggy who loves me more than life itself really helps and not having ex lying playing games on his effing blackberry, unbrushed teeth and boffing his arse off........well me and the dog are bloody relieved we've got the room to ourselves. It's such a treat.

In earlier days, months ago it was much harder but it does get easier. Just think of it as your very own little paradise and maybe get some nice floral bedlinnen and lovely cushions etc. x