My children have gone for nine days, this is the biggest downfall of single parenting

[fairyfly]

I need the break. I should be over the moon at the chance to relax. But............ i miss them already, i want to have my guiding eye over them, i want to share their experiences and ( this is the saddest bit) i miss having company. I feel really alone. I also don't enjoy the constant feeling of guilt that i am not being a mother and left it up to someone else.

have they gone with your ex?

Yes they are with him and his adolescent girlfriend.

it will be nice for them to have some one of their own age with them while they are with him!

Laughed out loud at that lilibet. Scared the twins.

FF, you are a good mum. Think how much more they will appreciate you when they are back.

What have you got planned in their absence?

I am going to hotel ff's boyfriend in a while. I have prdered breakfast in bed. He replied i have a fridge full of beer will that do. Oh the romance.

they just don't make them like that anymore

Beer in bed has a certain ring to it don't you think?

FF make the most of it. It doesn't happen often. My kids are also away this week (at my Aunt's) and I'm phoning them every day and I miss them, but I am determined to enjoy myself - especially not having to get up at the crack of dawn every day!

Caligula you were right, i have been making the most of it and having a wonderful time.

Apart from, i can't get in touch with them, the landline is being ignored and he has turned his mobile phone off. Would like peace of mind. Deep breaths, i will not slag my x off, the world is full of joy and love and everyone has qualities.

Can you text him just to say that you're touching base?

I have texted, left a message on his landline and mobile and i am being completely ignored.

then you'll have to assume that no news is good news.

What have you got planned for today? I hope it's something you can only do whilst child-free and not something like a Tweenies Concert.

I only presume he is a cockend. I feel like i have rights to know where my children are and check they are ok.

No im not going to go to a Tweenies concert, i would rather nail clip the ends of my teeth. Even if i was with the kids. Think i may just relax on the sofa with Cbeebies.

Bet the kids are having a good time but missing you. Beer in bed - what more could a girl want.

as for the X - maybe his adolescent girlfriend is teaching him how to use a mobile phone?

come on then ff.... Something Special's on.... all together now

Hello hello
How are you?
Hello hello
It's good to see you
I say hello
I'm happy that you came
Please tell me
Please tell me
Pleeeeease tell me your name!

You could always borrow my kids if you feel the need lol

Yeh i am sure they are having a great time.

Beer in bed, i know hey, worth all the pain and split up to be eventually awarded with that. i think we should get matching ashtrays on his bedside tables too.

fancy a train ride to Herts, ff?

so what do you have planned then? (aside from the beer in bed obviously)

I would if i had the money anorak but im using this weeks windfall for school uniform. Infact that is why x is in hiding he probably knows it is term time and i will need things. God no wonder adolescents are after him, he is like a little anarchist busted member, hiding from authority.

I am sorting out the house today and shopping. Sounds incredibly dull but lovely ( as you all can probably guess) to do it in an empty hassle free house. Then im babysitting, ha!

babysitting?! are you mad?

Most probably.

Going to leave my house again tomorrow and stay at my boyfriends ( i really do hate using that word) my lovers ( urgh even worse). I'm only having one day of maturity.

I also cringed at those words. I used to say 'my person' - my ex (whose brother you met) really liked it

He likes me saying "my man" and he likes calling me " his girl" all sounds a bit like ownership to me.