I'm having a severe relapse

[kaykayT]

Hi guys. I dont want this to seem soppy or anything but I need somewhere to turn to. I'm a young mum of 2, I'm only 19,my first partner was very abusive and the second partner turnt out he was cheating on my before and throughout the pregnancy. A lot of very bad stuff happened before the relationships too which I think has led to me being mentally damaged. Ive been diagnosed with depression, anxiety and ocd since I was 15 and I've had plenty of suicidal relapse since. I had to bring myself to emergency room when I was pregnant with dd because I couldn't take the thoughts. She's now 1 and I've been on medication again since the Incident and even though I've had down days the relapse in experiencing over the past couple days is killing me. I've felt suicidal and plenty of times felt like smashing my head into a wall to get these thoughts out. I'm trying to hold it together for my baby's but I'm absolutely dying inside. I don't want negetaive comments I just need to see some positive things. Maybe some jokes or anything on the brighter side I need to atleast try and crack a smile lol

I know how you feel! Please ring a out of hours, or get to a&e.
If it can wait until the morning then get a emergency appointment.

I'm glad you have realised something is up and you will get this sorted:)

That sounds so hard. As pp says, go to a and e for urgent help as suicidal thoughts are an emergency and also there's no need for you to suffer alone with this.

I think things often seem hardest at night so maybe in the morning you will feel a little better. But don't delay getting the help that you need.

Thanks ladies, Im seeing my phyciatrist in the morning, i think I just get very anxious that professionals like social care and stuff will see it as a reason to label me as an unfit mum, even though I know I ain't I think it's my anxiety kicking in :(

I'm sure you're a great mum and they will be able to see that!

@xtinak thankyou ❤️

Good luck today with your appointment. I believe that the professionals will be more impressed that you have recognised how you are feeling and are trying to access some help .

I have a joke for you which will hopefully make you smile

Why don't ants get ill?

Because they have tiny little anty bodies

@incogKNEEto I just finished my appointment and it went really well she's putting some things in place to get me feeling better again and a review on my medication and I'm laughing because that it the cheesiest joke I've ever heard 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

Fantastic, really glad you're getting some help and that you liked my joke it is very cheesy but they are my favourite kind of jokes!