I feel a little silly doing this. As it kind of makes me feel like a bit of a loner. But since having my eldest son (who is now 14 years) at the age of 21, not many of my friends stuck around as they went off to Uni and then meeting my youngest Son's Dad (who is now my extremely difficult ex) and losing friends as he was so controlling in the years we were together and it was a very messy break up, which has led to years of continued nastiness from my ex..After 4 years on my own with my Son's I met my now brilliant and wonderful loving boyfriend who has changed my life for the better and I am the happiest I've ever been in my life except one area and that is the lack or non existent friends I actually have. He has such a wide vast circle of friends it makes me feel inadequate and ashamed that I don't have that. It probably sounds really pathetic a nearly 36 year old saying all this. My boyfriend works away all week and we see each other when we can as he has children from his previous marriage. So life gets lonely it being just me with my boys and I'd actually like to start making some friends for myself and start building a better social life for both myself and my boys. I have tried making friends with mums at my youngest Son's playgroup but it is extremely clicky and it makes me feel uncomfortable as I am older than most of the mum's there. I also get the feeling it can get quite bitchy and I don't want drama (I get enough of that from my ex) and as my face doesn't fit there mold so to speak, I only get spoken to when they want to..So it's not like I haven't tried to make friends. I'm not horrible person honest. Anyway that's my story so far..I don't want to come across needy lol That is not my intention.
If anyone is in need of a friend I've a friendly face ☺ and I'm a good listener. Thanks for taking the time to read my ramblings xxhelenxx