My mum died a year ago. She and my dad have lived abroad for 20 years. Thousands of miles away. I’ve not seen my mum prior to her death for 13 years. Used to visit all the time in the early years but visits weren’t reciprocal so they faded out. My parents obviously chose this life which I never got my head around as they had grandchildren when they moved away. But if that’s what they wanted to do, we were happy for them. My mum didn’t want a funeral or anyone to see her after death. I have such mixed feelings about her death. Difficult to deal with