It’s like I woke up and I’m here, heartbroken and in fear

[DasPepe]

We were worried about Brexit and as my partner received a job offer, we left UK over 3 years ago.

It’s like I woke up just now and I don’t know what I was thinking. I want to go back but we would struggle work wise / and I worry about the kids and I know everyone has moved on.

I don’t dislike where we live now - in that it’s safer and it’s ok for the kids. I just suddenly do not want to be here any longer.
I wish we hadn’t moved I can’t stop crying, I can’t look at photos from before. My kids have picked up on this as I have now cried in front of them.

I know we could go back but I worry that if we do something bad will happen and I will have regret even more.

It’s like death - I literally feel like someone has died
I don’t know what to do
I’m old and it feels like too much

I miss my family

Like a PP said, this is a hard time to keep your head cool. It’s really hard to take decisions when everything feels so emotional.

I’m not sure why you didn’t travel to the UK last year when there were no restrictions, but could you already start planning a few trips for this year? That might help and give you something to look forward to?

Germany, is a world of difference culturally than UK. Especially if you don't speak German, it's impossible to penetrate... Sorry op... Talk to your DH and try to come back. Brexit, while terrible, hasn't been so bad. Especially if you and your kids have two passports.