I am so homesick

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Technically I don't belong here, I live in the UK but am german.
I am so homesick at the moment, everything smells wrong, tastes wrong, feels wrong.
am curled up on the sofa with my kitten, ds2 is asleep upstairs and I am waiting for builders to turn up so I can't even go out.

I am itching to just get in the car and drive to germany, even if it is just to buy a box of Koelln Schoko Muesli and take in the feel of the country.
I feel jealous of everyone who is closer to where I want to be right now than me, even though I realise they may be feeling just as homesick.
I don't know what to do with myself.. and at the same time I am aware if just how pathetic I sound.
DH doesn't understand because he has always lived in this tiny village. He says we will go to germany next year after the twins are born. next year!

He does sleep a lot, only likes to be awake for about 90 minutes to two hours at a time, then sleep for 2-3 hours, and then go to sleep at 7 and sleep till 8am (with 2-4 feeds in between). I sometimes wonder if he is a bit behind on his development, because he can't really hold anything properly and has no fine motor skills. at 5.5 months DS1 was stealing food off our plates, DS2 wouldn't even be able to coordinate grabbing something from a plate and holding on to it for long enough to shove it in his mouth. but he is commando crawling, sitting and rolling everywhere, which DS1 never did, he just started normal crawling at 10.5 months and walked at 12. Maybe I should stop comparing.

ha, it takes at least half an hour to get anywhere in munich - I always used to leave 45 minutes before I had to be anywhere so I would get there in time. I've grown lazy, driving everywhere here. Not something that is as easy to do in munich. but you don't need to, with the public transport.

yes, I think PM would be a good idea. have to go and run some errands for work (so much for my day off..) and will be back around 6, I think, so I have some time to think of a few things. feel free to pm me a list or some ideas of what you are missing.

Hallo Ivy - another German here who's been in the UK for almost 20 years but still feels a little homesick. I agree that living in a small village probably makes things harder for you, because what has helped me keep 'connected' to my German background are things like going to German Saturday School (and buying Brezeln & Käsekuchen at the German baker on the way home) and having other 'foreigners' around - because like you I still don't feel 'English' or really integrated (although I have some lovely English friends). DH isn't English either so we'll probably end up retiring somewhere else eventually but for now we try to make the best of what the UK has to offer .

Some other ideas: have you got a satellite dish - you can get all the German tv channels via the astra satellite (for free). And have a look at these shops that sell German food:www.germandeli.co.uk/sess/utn;jsessionid=154e8c5e61d2adf/shopdata/index.shopscript

Ivy I can't actually find any way to send you a personal message, nor any sign you have sent me one with a wish list for a care package - have you sent anything I am failing to find? Hope you feel a little better today! I met an American mum at (kids) football practice yesterday, she had come to support the opposition team in a match, there are so few native English speakers out here (as in our local villages) that it is always a highlight to have a chat to a native speaker! Do you have any native German speaking friends or acquaintances anywhere vaguely near?

sorry that might be because I adopted my halloween name.. I haven't sent a list yet, am still thinking about it...

They have some delicious stollen in Lidl at the moment, too.