Mum has been diagnosed with secondary liver cancer - she had breast cancer 4 years ago. She has significant metastatic deposits and not a good prognosis. She has already started to lose a lot of weight. She is already in some pain.
My mum has always been so, so strong. She's not had an easy life but has always held her head high and got on with it - she is the life and soul of the party. I'm not ready to see her decline and become so unwell - I can't think of my proud mum so fragile. I dread the day she has to feel terrible pain, and feel as if she's losing her dignity.
She still has so much she still wants to do - with the early pension payout because we've never had much money to do it before. I don't have it in me to tell her that we may not have the time. I couldn't stand to see the realization on her face.
I am scared to go to sleep every night because I worry the next day she will be worse - until one day I wake up and it will be obvious that it's time to go.
I don't have anywhere to go with this because I'm an only child, and I can't show her that I'm scared because it'll make her scared for me. When she was diagnosed she told the Macmillan nurse that she was ok - she just didn't want to leave me. I told her that I would be ok but I lied. She hasn't been perfect but I don't know who I am without her.
Im trying to be strong and take it day by day but I'm just not ready for my mum to be gone. I'm 27 and she is just 60. I am absolutely terrified of the months to come, and not sure how to put one foot in front of the other even today.
Some wisdom, advice, or even just support would be appreciated
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Life-limiting illness
Liver cancer - some kind words please
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rosesformum · 28/03/2024 16:11
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