Waiting in miserable anticipation

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DM stage four lung cancer. Sailed through chemo. Radiation therapy has completely destroyed her. Admission after admission to hospital since it finished, three months in a hospice, came home Monday, last night got blue lighted back into hospital with sepsis. She's absolutely done, completely exhausted and hasn't got anything left in her but she's hanging on because she doesn't want to leave me and my sister alone. We're going to hospital this afternoon to give her permission to let go and it's heartbreaking. I'm trying to work this morning to keep my mind busy but I feel like I'm just waiting in miserable anticipation. God this is fucking awful. Sorry - I just needed to post somewhere.

Ah, you poor things, all of you. That's so tough. Sending you supportive thoughts and best wishes to you and your sister and your Mum ❤

I'm sorry. Love to you all.

My Dad died of liver cancer in January, and the waiting for the inevitable was horrendous. He was admitted to a hospice at the beginning of December for EOL care, but then rallied with their TLC and the Consultant gave him another 3 to 6 months. We were reeling. So he was admitted to a nursing home (as he was too frail to be at home and we couldn't get wraparound care) and within 3 weeks he was gone.

He held on for dear life, and cried to me several times that he just didn't want to leave me. It was truly one of the hardest things I've gone through in my life.

I'm so sorry you're all going through it

We're going to hospital this afternoon to give her permission to let go

What an amazing thing to do for your mum.

I wish you strength to say it with love and bravery, and for your mum to know how loved she is and to know that you and your sister will be okay.

How awful for you, and for your mum. I hope your mum can finally find peace ❤

Oh, bless your hearts - this sounds so awful for all of you. Thinking of you and sending a handhold.

Ah OP I’m sorry to read this. You sound like a very caring daughter and brave too. I hope it goes as well as it can. Sending you love and strength 💐

Big hugs OP my mum currently has stomach, liver and bone cancer, she was only diagnosed 6 weeks ago and has been given 3 months to live (possibly 6 if she has chemo ) she had chemo last Friday and was admitted early hours today with neutropenic sepsis. This is all new to me so I have no idea what any of it means. It’s the hardest thing in the world to watch somebody you love fade so quickly.
I think you are being very brave by going and telling her it’s ok for her to rest now ❤️

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I'm so sorry, that must be the hardest thing. Sending love.