So....I'm trying to decide whether I'm being OTT.....possible AIBU but with a mortality spin...by wa6 of background... I have 2 cats, 2 children, 14 years dx with A degenerative neurological condition that makes mobility increasingly difficult and I also have more than a handful of benign brain tumours. I also have a partner. I am divorced from an emotionally abusive exDH and not able to do 'normal' work anymore. I used to have a very successful career and was always an overachiever.
So, DP has many stresses in his life and is quite an anxious person. He says he loves me very much and I think he does. The issue here is that he is very intense, present and actively 'caring '. It's all just a bit too much for me. I want to be free and have adventures and have a bit of a laugh. God, it's just too serious. It never used to be like this. We used to be different but Covid, family pressures, life seems to have got in The way, I have tried to explain it but it comes out wrong (often because he insists on talking about stuff even when I am tired and my brain is tired) but he says he can't help but be anxious and worry about the future. Am I being selfish? If I am, is that ok? I don't know what is reasonable....help? !