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Bone marrow transplant

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21jlb · 01/12/2020 15:35

Hello,
I have been told today that I have an issue with my blood and have to have a bone marrow transplant to try and stop it turning into leukaemia. Has anyone had this transplant before? If so I could really do with some advice on this.
Thank you.

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frolicmum · 01/12/2020 18:17

I haven't but wanted to send my love and lots of strengths. I donated bone marrow before I had children Thanks

MyNameIsArthur · 07/12/2020 22:11

Hi there am sorry to hear your news. It must be a big shock for you. I had a stem cell transplant nearly four years ago. Feel free to ask me anything. Can I ask what the blood disorder is that you have. I had MDS which would have transformed to leukaemia at some point. I am doing fine now.

There are a couple of Facebook groups that will be a great help to you:

Bone Marrow & Stem Cell Transplant Patient Support

UK Bone Marrow & Stem Cell Transplant Patient Support

The Macmillan website is also helpful with phone numbers you can call and an online community discussion forum:

www.macmillan.org.uk/

I know it must be a huge worry for you but the prognosis is massively better these days than it was years ago. The medical science is on our side. You are welcome to PM me if you wish to Flowers

21jlb · 09/12/2020 22:24

Thank you for the links.
It is also MDS, I am 33.
Just a little concerned over the length of time I will have to be in hospital as I have 3 children.
And also concerned how long it will be until I return to work due to pay.

I’m so pleased to hear you are doing well.
It was such a shock as I had gone to the doctors for something totally unrelated. But I am trying to be positive that they are doing this to prevent something worse.

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MyNameIsArthur · 10/12/2020 22:28

Hi

Glad you found my message. I'm just off to bed so will reply properly tomorrow but just wanted to post you this other link I saw today. Take care

mdspatientsupport.org.uk/covid-19-vaccine-blood-cancer-advice/

MyNameIsArthur · 11/12/2020 21:55

Hi again I'm sorry you are going through this. I hope you find the links useful. There are many on the fb groups all at different stages. Before, during and after transplant. Lots of advice. Lots of support. It's been nearly 4 years since my transplant. I had my transplant 5 to 6 months after diagnosis. Had to find a stem cell donor first. Luckily one of my brothers was a match. I had to have various tests on my heart, lungs, liver and kidneys which was routine. Then it was a wait for an available isolation room. I was in hospital for 3 weeks. First week was chemo then the transplant and two weeks of waiting for blood counts to rise plus recovery then back home again. Initially after that I had to go back as an outpatient 3 times a week and that graduaĺly reduced and last year I went on to yearly appointments. I'm retired so can't give advice about how soon you can go back to work. People on the Facebook group can advise you there. After you leave hospital you might want to sleep alot and you have no energy. Also you have to be very careful about catching infections. So it could be a while before you are able to return to work. You will need support from family and friends for a while to help you get back on your feet. It is possible they may ask you to stay in purposely provided accommodation close to the hospital after you leave which they fund.

I'm not surprised how much of a shock it must have been for you when you found out if you had no symptoms of MDS. I did have symptoms and all my blood counts were very low and I needed weekly blood and platelet transfusions. I had lower risk MDS in that it would take a longer time to transform to leukaemia but I did become more and more transfusion dependent.

You can now get free medical prescriptions. Also contact Citizens Advice as they may be able to help you claim PIP and other benefits.they can fill out the forms for you

Please ask me anything. I'm here if you want advice, support or just need to rant .

You are right in that they are doing this to prevent something worse but MDS itself needs dealing with. Remember that those who are treating you are highly skilled, have specialist knowledge and deal with this day in day out. This is what they do. They know there stuff and will help you get through this. You are in good hands and the prognosis is good. The science is improving all the time too. I hope this gives you some reassurance. I'm doing great now and no longer have blood cancer Flowers

21jlb · 13/12/2020 12:49

Thank you so much for that information.
It is really helpful to get an idea of what to expect from a real person who has been through it.
I have my first appointment on Monday with the hospital that will be doing the transplant.

It is scary as I have 3 children aged 13, 9 and 7, but I’m lucky to have the support of family around to help. But also feel like I am putting added pressure to them and will also restrict them in their own lives.
It does sound like I’ll be off work for a little while afterwards which also worries me that they won’t need me when it’s time to come back as it’s such a fickle place. But the most important thing right now is my health and making sure the kids are looked after.

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21jlb · 13/12/2020 12:53

These Facebook groups will make a change to the Disneyland ones that I’d been on.
Was meant to take the children to Disneyland last March but it was obviously cancelled, rebooked another two times which have also been cancelled. Now it sounds like it’s out of the window again for next year :(

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MyNameIsArthur · 14/12/2020 08:23

Hi I'll reply properly later but I just wanted to say I hope it all goes okay with your appmt today. I'll be thinking of you. Have you got someone coming with you? It's a good idea to take pen and paper with you to make a few notes. I used to keep a record of my blood counts so I could see what direction they were going in. It's good that they found the MDS before it had transformed to leukaemia . You take care and let me know how you got on Flowers

21jlb · 14/12/2020 11:13

Thank you.
No unfortunately I’m not allowed anyone with me. But I have my pen and paper all ready.
My bloods have been roughly the same, around 75 on average up and down but being monitored fortnightly at the moment.
I didn’t add to my last message - congratulations on being cancer free. It’s really positive to hear.

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CaptainMyCaptain · 14/12/2020 11:18

I haven't got any advice but I used to work with someone who had had a bone marrow transplant after leukaemia and she was absolutely full of life - turbo charged! I think she was determined to live life to the full.

All the best for you op.

MyNameIsArthur · 14/12/2020 21:54

Hi there

Thank you. I appreciate that.

How did you get on today? I hope it wasn't too daunting. Is 75 your haemoglobin? I also used to keep a record of my platelets, neutrophils and white cells as they dropped alot. It's a shame you are not allowed anyone in with you during your appointment as you could probably do with someone to do a bit of hand holding.

I hope you find the forums helpful and supportive. I'm here anytime you want to ask anything or need support. You might find the forums great for getting to see many people's experiences and getting support and maybe forming friendships, but you can take as little or as much from it as you wish.

I understand how frightening it must be for you wondering how you are going to go through all this while dealing with children and work. Your family will be happy to support you through this Im sure. They too must be devastated. Your children will want to do their bit too. Your health is important, more important than work. Just take it a day at a time. With work, are you able to work from home at all? Some people I got to know at hospital were able to return to work fairly quickly but much depends on how your recovery is. Some work part time initially and build up to full time. The transplant is tough going and your focus for the next year will be on getting through your treatment. For me, suddenly trivial things that I thought were important, no longer were. What became important was each day enjoying my family, the birds in the sky, the stars at night, appreciating the beauty of everything such as flowers, butterflies and the sound of the sea.

I'm sorry you have not been able to get to Disney Land with your children yet. It is likely it will be out the window for next year. I'm guessing covid might still be an issue with travelling anyway and possibly Brexit too, but having blood cancer and a stem cell treatment will dominate the year. Your immune system possibly before but definitely afterwards will be weak. You will need your childhood vaccinations all over again. You'll have to be careful what you do and where you go and who you meet. It is unlikely you will be able to travel abroad and medical insurance will be higher when you can. Perhaps look at 2022 as the year you get your life back on track and enjoy your holiday in Disneyland with your children. It will be something to look forward to. I guess your kids have been looking forward to going to Disneyland but I bet they will just be happy to have their mum well again.

You can chat with your haematology consultant and nurse about concerns you have. Can I ask roughly what area you are in? At my hospital in Devon there is a Macmillan Centre called The Mustard Tree where I could go when I had my outpatient appointments. It was lovely. They would bring me coffee and biscuits, chat with me, provide advice, support, counselling if I wanted it, information, but it was also a place to relax away from the hospital business. My wife came too and as a carer she got help and support there too. Unfortunately because of Covid, it can't be accessed right now but hopefully these places will open up again in the next few months.

Hope you're okayFlowers

21jlb · 16/12/2020 22:29

My appointment went well. It was mainly going through how the transplant happens and what to expect. The information you gave honestly helped me prepare for it as it was a lot of what you had said.
They are hoping I should be ready to go ahead by Feb/March. I won’t be allowed any visitors so that’ll be hard without my children.
I’ll be at the Royal Marsden in Sutton.
I have joined the Facebook groups that you have suggested and think I’ll find that informational.
Yes that was my haemoglobin level. My white cells are ok, with the platelets slightly low but ok. They have picked up on some dodgy chromosomes and some leukaemia cells between 5-10% which they said is low.
I think I’ve become quite positive towards it as it’s all for the best in the long run, but it is quite daunting.

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MyNameIsArthur · 18/12/2020 23:47

Hi! I'm glad your appointment went well. Was it the "scary talk" they had with you? I'm glad the information I gave helped you prepare. I'm so pleased. I will give some more soon but don't want to overload you.
It's not that long then until your transplant. That is good. Did they show you one of the isolation rooms at the hospital? My wife visited me almost every day and

a few other family members saw me a couple of times even though I was told I wasn't allowed visitors. Hopefully it will be the same for you with your kids. Ask the nurses when you go in. There is a period once you've had your chemo when your blood counts fall to zero when you are at greatest risk of infection, so they advise against visitors then. However they may be much stricter at your hospital.

I hope the fb groups are helpful. On the group page, there is a bit that says FILE. In there the group administrator keeps some useful info such as what to bring in for your hospital stay.

I'm glad your blood counts seem stable and that the leukaemia cells ("blasts" they call it) are not high. It's 20% when they see you as having leukaemia. How many bone marrow biopsies have you had?

It's definitely best you have the transplant and soon too. Did they mention what the chromosome abnormality was called? I'm glad you feel positive about having it but there will be times when you won't feel positive and you will be scared. My wife used to get annoyed when people told me to stay strong and positive. They meant well but it wasn't really helpful. There will be times when you will want to cry and you will feel very weak. That is okay. You will have every right to feel like that.By the way, if I type alot here, don't feel you have to write alot back. You have enough on your plate already Flowers

21jlb · 22/12/2020 21:41

It wasn’t quite a scary talk. Just what the options are, but basically saying that a transplant was the only option due to my age.
No I didn’t get to see any of the rooms, was just in the doctor’s office and then spoke to the nurse.
I think it’s due to COVID that there are no visitors at the moment, especially now we’re in Tier 4. But fingers crossed!
I’ve only had one biopsy so far, but think they said I’ll have another one before and then after. Not looking forward to that at all!
No they didn’t say what the abnormality was called.

My brother is getting tested to see if he is a match, but I don’t know if that will just prolong it to be honest and it took him a week just to phone the hospital and can see him just dragging his heels. So if he’s not a match I’m hoping a donor won’t take too long.
I do have days when I feel a bit weepy or irritable, then feeling scared if my lifespan will be affected on the other side or how unwell I’ll feel in the months afterwards.
I’m trying to think of ways to keep myself entertained in the hospital, but then don’t know if I’ll even feel well enough.

Thank you - it’s very helpful speaking to someone who can understand first hand.

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MyNameIsArthur · 25/12/2020 23:06

Hi! Will reply properly soon but just wanted to wish you and your family a happy Christmas x

21jlb · 26/12/2020 21:13

Thank you - hope you had a merry Christmas.

I’ve been looking through the Facebook groups and have read so many different experiences and obviously everyone reacts differently to it.

But I’m just wondering how unwell will I feel?
Is vomiting and diarrhoea a big part of it? I’ve read that people can only eat tiny mouthfuls.
If so how long did you feel really unwell for?

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MyNameIsArthur · 01/01/2021 21:34

Hi!

My apologies again for not replying earlier . The reason was I wanted to give you a comprehensive answer to your questions and hopefully other information that will be of use to you as you prepare for your transplant. However things got busy with Xmas and new year and I didn't want to just give you fleeting answers.

I wish you a happy New Year but I understand it will be an anxious one for you and challenging. I'm sorry you are having to go through all this especially after the difficult year we have all already had. You will come out the other end in a better place and life will be good again.

I will respond to your questions over the next few days.

Take care

iVampire · 02/01/2021 07:58

Hi

I was just wondering if you have yet been told the name of your diagnosis

I have CML, which can be held in check by other treatments so a transplant is unlikely unless they all fail.

From those I know who have needed one, you are looking at several weeks in hospital, and at least 100 days strict seclusion (until it is safe you have your jabs again)

You will also need to shield (Covid risk) until at least a year post transplant (though I hope shielding ends before that)

But you should probably be put on the shielding list right now

What interim treatment are you on?

21jlb · 02/01/2021 21:44

Happy New Year to you.
Sorry I don’t want you to feel like you have to respond all the time. I have found the forums helpful, and everyone seems to have a different experience.
I’m thinking that February may be a little too optimistic their end for this to all start seeing as they want numerous organ tests to be done.
My brother got in contact with them, but no blood test has been arranged as yet, but think due to all that is going on and bank holidays it may have caused delays.

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21jlb · 02/01/2021 21:50

@iVampireAll I know is that I have MDS with excess blasts of around 10%. They have put my risk level as high risk, but think this is due to my age.
They have said due to my age (33) my best chance of treating this is to have the transplant as MDS will not go away and will get worse over time so they want to try and treat it rather than manage it.
No treatment in the meantime as my levels are staying the same and I am managing. I haven’t needed any transfusions or needed any further antibiotics.
If I was to become unwell in the meantime they said I’d need a transfusion, but so far no changes.

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21jlb · 02/01/2021 21:55

@iVampire they haven’t mentioned shielding so far. They did ask my occupation, but said as I’m in an office with a few people then it should be ok. But I suppose that’s not taking public transport and shops into consideration.
I wouldn’t want to shield, think it would drive me mad, plus finances.
Think I’m at more risk of my youngest one home bringing home infections as he touches anything and everything.

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MyNameIsArthur · 03/01/2021 20:47

Hi there!

No, is definitely not a case of feeling like I have to respond. I want to respond and want to help you in some small way to get through this.

I'm glad the forums have been helpful. You are right. There are so many different experiences and reactions on the forums. I guess they are made up of people with different conditions, from different countries, different ages and levels of general health and fitness so is hard to compare like with like. All anyone can tell you really is how it affected them but you will find there are some common aspects that come up frequently. Hospitals often have some variations in treatment too.

Now obviously with the covid pandemic, that may have thrown the spanner in the works with getting all the ducks in a row regarding tests before your treatment. However, your haematology dept will surely realise the urgency of this and ensure the tests are done in good time, especially if you have a specified date to start treatment. It is a good idea though to keep in contact with haematology just to keep on their toes and to ensure they've got the ball rolling and that there hasnt been any missing communication along the line. With regards organ testing, I remember it took a while before they were set up, but they all happened pretty quickly in succession.

I think it might be worth chasing up the tests to be done on your brother. With my three brothers I think they were each sent a testing kit by my haematology dept and they had to arrange with their GPs then to carry out the test and send it back to haematology. Then it needed to be analysed for a match. It takes time so they need to get a move on so give them a call. If your brother isn't a match, they will then search the Anthony Nolan register for donors and then a worldwide register. Germany is one of the biggest donors of stem cells.

When I had my first bone marrow aspiration/biopsy, I found it too painful. I only had two more after that and they were before my transplant. I didn't have any after. The second one I had I asked to be sedated for and so I was not conscious when I had it. The third one I had just before my transplant and they did that the same time I had my Hickman line put in so I was sedated and unconscious for both. My Hickman line was great as it had three tubes for infusions/transfusions and taking bloods for tests, so I didn't need needles stuck in me all the time. I think the alternative are picc lines but Hickman lines are much better in my opinion.

I think on the Facebook group under Files, there is a list of things to bring in with you for your hospital stay which people have given advice about or you could just ask the question on the group. I brought in comfy track suit bottoms and t shirts and hoodies to wear during the day and pyjamas for during the night. I brought in slippers too. Bring in loads of underwear. Bring a comfy cushion, blanket, CD player with relaxing music on. Bin liners for dirty washing to go in. Photos and personal items. Phone and ipad/tablet chargers. Gentle shampoo and shower gel as your skin can be oversensitive for a little while. paper and pens to write anything down if you need to remember anything such as blood counts, medical staff names. You may decide to keep a blog of your experience. I set up a Facebook group for myself or wife to use just to give family and friends updates which saved on having to update people individually. Obviously immediate family got personal updates but it helped giving just one post to everyone else. I was either too tired to contact people or my wife was busy visiting me (three hour journey both ways), working or doing house chores. She took my washing home every few days to wash and replace. Let people know the address of the hospital so they can send cards etc.

These are some of the things I found challenging when I was in for my 22 days. Constant flow of people in and out my room throughout the day and night from doctors, nurses, health care assistants, cleaners, catering staff, students. Moving around my room with the drip attached to me. The frequent beeping of the drip day and night when the meds ran low or emptied or when I unplugged it go to the loo. The first week was the high intensity chemotherapy. I think the first four or five days I felt fine but then I started to feel unwell. They give you anti sickness medication which does help. I don't recall being sick but I got very tired and had no energy. The day of my transplant (day zero) I was really ill. For me personally that was the worst day. Others sail through it though. By this time, I just completely lost my appetite and didn't want to eat anything. Your sense of taste goes aswell. One of the drugs you start to take when you go in is cyclosporin. Initially this is done through your Hickman line but later you get it in tablet form and will take it for some time after you leave. This is the anti rejection medication. This can make you feel nauseous. You take anti sickness meds for this too. I struggled to eat anything but had to because you need to keep your strength up. I found that drinking milk helped me. I went off drinking water but drank lots of milk too which has nutrients in. I also had petit felous. It was about two weeks into my stay my hair started falling out rapidly and one of the HCAs shaved my head as I was ending up with hair in my milk and on my bedding. Remember though that all your body hair falls out including eye lashes. I did get some diarrhoea. They provide incontinence pads to avoid accidents. I was given papermache wee and poo pots and had to do everything in them as much as possible so they could measure all my inputs (food and drink) and outputs! Was all very indignifying but it's just the way it is. As your bone marrow is wiped out by the chemotherapy, your blood counts fall to zero, then as the donor stem cells take hold, they then produce blood cells and then your blood counts start to rise. During the time your blood counts are low and falling to zero, you are likely to develop mucositis where your mouth, tongue and oesophogus get ulcers. I suggest you ask for a morphine driver during this time. Eating was really hard with this. It goes away when your counts come up again which for me was about four days. You will hear on the fb group that sucking ice lollies throughout the week of chemotherapy reduces the likelihood of mucositis so it's worth looking into. For around a couple of weeks I had real fatigue and it was a struggle to do anything. Everything was a huge effort. Even watching the telly. I didn't bother for most the time. I dud try to keep walking round my room as some exercise is important.

When you leave the hospital, you will be given a huge amount of repeat prescription medication. Contact your GP surgery asap about getting your exemption card as you are now entitled to free prescriptions for a number of years. You will have to come back as an outpatient 3 times a week initially which will gradually reduce over time depending on how your recovery goes. After 2 years post transplant, I went onto a yearly appointment. Day zero (your transplant day) is called your 'Re-birthday ' . A year after day zero, people on the fb group will be wishing you a happy Re-birthday! You will also have two different sets of DNA in your body. Your blood group and blood DNA will change to that of your donor. The rest will be your own DNA. At 30 days and 60 days post transplant, they do what is called a chimerism test. If the chimerism test result is 100%, that is good as it means your blood is 100% donor cells. The 30 day test is not as reliable as the 60 day test. You can have what is called mixed chimerism but the consultants are only happy if the donor cells make up 90%. Mine dropped to around 55% by 60 days and they were worried the transplant had failed. I was quickly taken off the cyclosporin and over a period of 18 months, I had four donor lymphocyte infusions (DLIs) or top ups of donor stem cells. When they collect donor stem cells for your transplant, they keep in storage a certain amount for top ups. Gradually my chimerism increased to about 96% so they were happy with that.

The cyclosporin is an immuno suppressant anti rejection drug. People who have organ transplants also get this. The difference is they get it do that their body's immune system doesn't reject the donor organ. With a stem cell transplant, the cyclosporin is to stop the new immune system from the donor cells rejecting your own body! A consequence of rejection is something called Graft versus host disease or gvhd. It can affect anywhere on the body. Often you hear about gvhd of the gut. It can be mild or it can be more serious. Cyclosporin is there to control this but steroids are also used if you get symptoms of gvhd. I had no symptoms of gvhd which was great but a little bit is said to be good as it shows the transplant is doing its job properly. My brother who was my donor was a very close 10/10 match and someone said too close a match in that his cells and my cells were too similar so there was no right between them hence my chimerism was low. More donor cells did help to win the war!

Before your transplant, you will have to sign a form consenting to it. I had what was called the 'scary talk' with the consultant where he discussed all aspects of the transplant such as gvhd and how it might not work. Don't get too put off by this. They just need to tell you all this stuff to cover their back. Doesn't mean it wont work. They just need to ensure you are aware of everything. The science and expertise that goes into all this now is amazing and the medical staff are fantastic so there is every likelihood you will get through this and get cured!

Check out your hospital to see if there is a Macmillan centre there. You won't be able to visit there at the moment because of Covid, but hopefully once restrictions start to ease up as the year progresses, you can go there when you have your appointments. It's peaceful there while you wait to have your appointment and they serve coffee and biscuits. You can get advice, support, counselling, massage and other things there. Is really good. Also contact a charity called Look Good Feel Better who can provide wigs (if that's what you wanted) and moisturiser and toiletries that are kind and sensitive to your skin. Also ask the Macmillan centre and/or Citizens Advice about any benefits you can get after your transplant.

After you leave hospital, your immune system will be compromised. You will have to be careful to avoid all infections. You won't be able to have indoor plants. You will have to avoid compost, even stay away from areas of building works because of spores from concrete and cement. You will have to avoid supermarkets and people generally. Your family too will have to avoid catching infections because they can pass it onto you. Cleanliness will become more important. Hand washing will need to be done a million times a day by everyone in the household. Visitors too will need to be careful. Surfaces and handles will need regular cleaning. Have plenty of hand sanitizer around. Obviously with covid, much of this is being done now anyway. After a while you will need to have all your childhood immunisations again.

You will really need the support of your family and friends before, during and after your transplant. I think for a couple of weeks after I left hospital, I had no energy and needed to sleep often during the day. I was gradually able to take on light duties but it took a few weeks. However it could be different for you. The problem is you just don't know so you need to prepare for the worst scenario that you arent upto much for a few weeks after transplant, maybe more. Just depends on your recovery. Speak to your family now about what they need to take on and how they need to step up. Just be prepared before the big day.

The other thing to consider is how the chemotherapy affects fertility as that might still be important to you if you have a wish to have more kids. They may discuss you freezing eggs if you want that.

I hope all this helps with you preparing for your transplant. I hope everything goes well for you. I'm sure it will. You will be fine! I hope you will keep in touch to let me know how you are getting on. I will pm you with my contact details but obviously it is up to you if you want to or not. You can see why it took me a while to respond to you. I wanted to write something a bit more comprehensive to help you. You may already know much of this now if you've been reading up. It's possible I've missed a few things to tell you but perhaps this is enough already. Please ask me any questions if there is anything you want to know or are unsure about. Of course you will feel emotional and weepy at times and dont feel you have to put on some brave face. It will be a very worrying time as you think what you are about to go through and how it will affect you long term aswell. The prognosis is good but just live for each day and enjoy the love of your family and font think too far ahead.

Take care

OllietheOwl · 08/01/2021 20:45

Hi OP. I know a guy who ran the London marathon last year after receiving a bone marrow transplant (and chemo) for Leukaemia in 2013. It was a tough road but he’s now probably even fitter than he was before.
Good luck!

21jlb · 18/01/2021 10:34

@MyNameIsArthur
Hello - sorry for such a delayed response, but I have been quite under the weather the past few weeks.
I just wanted to say thank you for all of your advice and information that you gave. It was really nice of you to take your time to go into so much detail.
My brother finally had his blood test last week so at least that ball is rolling now.
I’m dreading it happening, but also just want to hurry up and get it over with so I can start recovering.

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MyNameIsArthur · 20/01/2021 14:00

Hi there!

That's okay. I'm sorry you have been under the weather the past few weeks. It's hardly surprising considering everything you are going through. It's alot to take in with your world turned upside down. I think communication is important so don't be afraid to talk about how you feel with your family and friends but also to listen to how they are feeling too. None of you should be afraid to talk about how scared all of you are and just how it's affecting you all. There are times when you won't feel strong and you won't feel positive. It's okay to feel everything you feel.

You are welcome. I hope my post helped. Often people just write a couple of lines which doesn't always give enough to go on so I wanted to give you more detail so you have a better idea of the process.

That's great news your brother had his blood test. I hope you get the results soon and I pray that he is a 10/10 match

I know. I understand. I was anxious about it but also just wanted to get it done so so could start getting my life back. Whatever the experience of your transplant, it does fly by. Before you know it, you're back home again.

The other thing I did before my transplant was to make sure my affairs were in order ie will, insurances, details of all my bank accounts, finances, online passwords, paperwork etc etc. I also wrote letters to my wife, kids, mum, brothers. Everything was put in envelopes to be opened in the event of my death. I don't mean for that to scare you. I always felt I was going to be okay and that I was definitely going to get through it all but it just gave me peace of mind.

I'm here if you feel down or anxious and need to offload.

Take care