Hi all, Im new here so not sure if this is the right place. My Mum has been in hospital now for about 2 months. She was admitted as she had 3 falls in a week. The last one her blood pressure was so low. They then found she had sepsis and liver or kidney issues. She got over sepsis even though at one point the doctors were not that hopeful.
My Mum is 93 and up until recently was living on her own with no help at all.
She then got sepsis again and then pneumonia, to add to the mix MRSA. They tried the usual antibiotics etc and fluids but that didnt work. I got called on really early one morning not knowing what to expect. They basically gave her pain killers to keep her comfortable.
I stayed all day but she was comfortable. She was then put on end of life pathway ( nobody at first told me what that meant)
Now apparently shes has plateaued and is not on the end of life thing.
I am an only child so all visiting is down to me. I dont begrudge it of course as she is my Mum but its draining and exhausting.
I was too visiting every day but trying to work and work through a house move made it impossible.
I feel the guilt thing when I dont visit. Now its so hard to see my Mum like she is, cannot really talk, doesnt eat/drink. Her eyes roll up in her head. I try to talk to her but its so hard. She tries to talk to me but the words dont come out.
I wonder how long is this going to go on for, I know nobody knows but I dont want my last memories of my dear Mum to be these. I am so confused right know, I dont really have anyone to talk to about it. My wife is great but I dont want to burden her as shes been through similar with her parents.
Ideally im looking for some sort of support group, is there such a thing? Depends where you live I assume.
Sorry for the long post, I just need to get it off my chest!